A New Passion...an expensive one

I have become pretty much obsessed with doing my nails.  I am in my late 20's and for the first time I am interested in cosmetics...little bit of a late bloomer in that aspect?  I think so. Every time we go into a store that might have nail polish I have to go look to see what they have.  Can't always afford a new polish but it doesn't hurt to look.  I also have a wonderful make-up outlet place where I live where I can get drug store brand make up for really cheap. Too bad when we move across the country in a few months I will not have that wonderful place anymore.  Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure.  I still am a little messy and need more practice but that will come.

OK so I had this awesome idea to do my nails with blue background and silver stars.  That morning when I went to go get dressed I realized that I have a shirt the exact same, forgot I had the shirt and I assure you this wasn't planned!

These were done by using nail stickers from the dollar store, some blue polish painted on using tip stickers to give it a cleaner edge and some glitter top coat.

I will start listing the brands and such that I'm using but I forgot to write down what I had used here.  Hope you like

xoxoxo

Christmas...where were you?

Just to warn you that if you are still all warm and fuzzy with Christmas Cheer then I may suggest you do not read this post.  Not that I am suspecting anyone is reading it anyways but its my blog...my life..the good and bad.

It's boxing day here in Canada today and I have to say I'm glad Christmas is over.  For some reason I just wasn't feeling Christmas this year.  Don't know why, but reasons I suspect are;

1) Seeing pictures of my Sister and family on Facebook, knowing I would only be able to enjoy their Christmas through pictures rather then being there with them

2)  The emptiness I feel seeing everyone create Christmas memories with their children, reminding me that I still haven't had a baby.

3) The fact that my dad is a miserable grump and we couldn't live with my parents anymore (we were trying to stick it out until we moved to Alberta in 3 months) So in December alone we have had to move all our stuff out of where we were, move to the Sister in Laws for 2 weeks and then move into Ryan's parents place until we leave.  I don't know where anything is right now and its frustrating.

So with all of that debilitating the Christmas spirit, Christmas day wasn't worth anything to change my mind. Here's the scoop on the day;

Slept on a chair Christmas eve.  The mother in law had promised the sister in law that her and her famiy could have the spare bed...the only bed I have right now.  There is a futon in the other room that they could have used but no, we had to give up our bed.  Now if anyone out there knows what it is like to live with any sort of mental illness you will understand that your "safe place" is very important.  I am at heightened anxiety already with all of the moving around and still trying to get used to having this room as my safe place for the next couple of months so when I had to give it up for the night?  Not a very good idea....
Next morning, as a result of the night before, I woke up feeling something awful, HORRIBLE panic attack, probably up their among the top 10 worst.  Anyways in-between all of this I managed to sit with the family as everyone opened gifts.  We had already in November received a laptop from his parents so I knew nothing was for us from them, I am so greatful for that lap top!  We knew that his Nanny still had to buy for us and  everyone was sitting there opening gifts..everyone except me.  The sister in law has a new boyfriend and he was being showered with gifts from Nanny gift certificates, tools, clothes, other guy stuff,  Finally I get handed a bag, it is a blanket with figure skaters on it, probably $10 to make the whole thing.  Then Nannys new boyfriend starts handing out cards to everyone...gift certificates, money......I didn't even get a card!  I haven't done anything wrong, and my husband can't figure out what was going on either, maybe she is mad that I have "influenced" her grandson to move to Alberta, far away from her and her controlling ways and the funny thing is?  I think that he is more excited to move then I am!

So continuing on with our day, something that we ate the night before we shouldn't have ate.  Both of us were nauseous and had to skip out on dinner at Nanny's.  What did we have for dinner? Vegetable soup and Macaroni and Cheese...yum...Merry Christmas...

Anyways now thats over with..I'm done venting, new years is just around the corner and I am determined to do thing I have been saying I am going to do, usually I'm much more cheery and greatful
....I promise xoxoxoxo

New Years Resolutions

Getting so Close to Christmas now, and the new year, and my new years resolution?  To be more organized, stay committed to things I have started and work on this blog.  I think the best way to tackle this would be to have it open and ready to use during the day, add stuff s needed and then at the end of the day polish of the post and then publish it!  Yes I think I will try that!
Here is some more songs for the 30 song Challenge, I will listen to the songs while I edit pictures and then post them here, that way I feel like I am doing two things at once!  Hopefully you can click on the link and it will take you to the song!


 a song that reminds of you of somewhere - New Radicals - You Get What You Give 
I went to Cold Lake Alberta in the Summer of 2000 for Senior Leader's Course, which a selected number of Air Cadet's from across Canada get chosen to attend each summer.  It is a very special privilege to be able to go there and I still  to this day think it was one of the best experiences in my life.  Half way through the course, one of the staff cadet's that was responsible for us, had to leave for medical reasons and I remember we all sat in a circle in the field and our staff played this song for us.  It was really special and every time I hear it, I think of that moment.


a song that reminds you of a certain event - The Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling 
I'm pretty sure the first time I heard this song  was at my Sisters Wedding.  This was the entry song for the bridal party and it was a pretty fitting song, as my sister was very attentive to detail for her wedding.  Why this song stands out is because I don't get to see my sister very often as I am in Ontario and she is in Alberta. I am moving there in 4 months so that is about to change!


a song that you know all the words to - Fresh Prince of Bel Air Theme Song
I had to pick this song because I think almost everyone knows the words to this song, seems that if someone hears it somewhere or starts singing it, everyone joins in. I of course know tons more songs because I sing but this was the first song that came to my head when I thought of this. 


a song that you can dance to - The Black Eyed Peas - My Humps 
You would think that I am a diehard fan of the Black eyed peas but that is far from the truth, I am not that fond of them (or maybe I am subconsciously in denial?)   but every time I hear this song I want to dance, even if that means sitting in my computer chair dancing.


And I will add more later.....

More of my 30 Songs....

Both of the songs in this post remind me of someone special who passed away last May.  He was an amazing man that I dated for a lengthy amount of time but it just didn't work out but he will always be in my heart.

a song that makes you sad-Only Time Enya- On the day of his Celebration of Life, there was a slideshow with pictures of his life and this song was the music for the slideshow.  Now every time I hear it I think of him.

A song that reminds you of someone-It's been Awhile Staind- This was his favourite song and he sang it all the time at Karaoke, everytime I hear this song I get a little choked up.

The Least and Happy Post

 Your least favorite song-Don McLean-American Pie- My least favorite song surprisingly was harder to think of and I'm sure that there are more songs that I dislike more then this one but this one is defiantly a contender.  It just goes on and on...and on...and on...zzzzzzzzzzzz

A song that makes you happy- Party Rock Anthem LFMAO - I don't know why but this song right now just makes me happy and makes me dance when I hear it, and that is happy enough for me

I am confident in talking to myself

So it is pretty evident at this point, because I haven't been keeping up with my posts, that I am now just doing this for myself until I have people that start to come by and read my blog again.  I found this list somewhere and I thought it would be fun to do.  I am going to do it a bit different as it is supposed to be a "30 Day Song Challenge" but I want to do it all now , so I'm just going to make it a "30 Song Challenge, and have fun finding the songs and listening to them as I post.
This is the list of the Songs I have to find....I am taking this on as sort of a "personal scavenger hunt"


 your least favorite song

 a song that makes you happy
 a song that makes you sad
 a song that reminds you of someone
 a song that reminds of you of somewhere
 a song that reminds you of a certain event
 a song that you know all the words to
- a song that you can dance to
 a song that makes you fall asleep
 a song from your favorite band
 a song from a band you hate
 a song that is a guilty pleasure
 a song that no one would expect you to love
 a song that describes you
 a song that you used to love but now hate
 a song that you hear often on the radio
 a song that you wish you heard on the radio
 a song from your favorite album
 a song that you listen to when you’re angry
 a song that you listen to when you’re happy
 a song that you listen to when you’re sad
 a song that you want to play at your wedding
 a song that you want to play at your funeral
 a song that makes you laugh
 a song that you can play on an instrument
 a song that you wish you could play
 a song that makes you feel guilty
 a song from your childhood
 your favorite song at this time last year

 your favorite song

Again......Another Chance...I will start Blogging!

Stay tuned lots of updates and new posts to come!

My Bestfriends Baby Saira Rose, the reason I have been away from my blog

Good reason for not writing on my blog is that i have been away for a couple of weeks at my Best Friends House 3+ hours away. She recently had a baby and named her Saira Rose

ABC'S of Candace

Act your age? Nope more like 14, and that was 13 years ago

Born on what day of the week? Thursday

Chore you hate? Everything lol

Dad’s name? Barry but he goes by Wade

Essential makeup item? Nail Polish

Favorite actor? Johnny Depp

Gold or silver? White Gold

Hometown? Barrie Ontario

Instruments you play? Used to play bagpipes, trying to learn piano/guitar

Job? Aspiring Photographer

Kids? Hopefully soon

Living arrangements? Shared accommodations with my parents

Mom’s name? Penny

Need? Money

Overnight hospital stays? Psych Ward...yay lmao

Phobias? Death, spiders, crouds

Quote you like? Dreams are a wish your heart makes

Religious affiliation? No specific religion though I am spiritual

Siblings? 1 Step-sister, who i count as a full sibling

Time you wake up? 11am-12pm

Unique talent? Does persuasion count?

Worst habit? Smoking

X-rays you’ve had? Dental, chest, wrist, CT Scan

Yummy food you make? Taco Salad with Spinach Yummm!!!

Zodiac Sign? Capricorn

1,2,3 Repeat...

I have been having High anxiety this past almost two weeks which hinder my ability to be creative. However I seem to be accomplishing stuff in rhythmic fashion

one line of making bracelet
scan one picture onto computer
Do one Griddler puzzle
Repeat

While doing this I am catching up on past seasons of Big Brother USA on You Tube...love that site!!! Wish they had a Canadian Big Brother, we need more reality shows up here!!!



This is the bracelet I made today, I love making bracelets, I feel so accomplished when they are finished. i found the pattern over at www.friendship-bracelets.net Awesome site.

Started to make a hemp bracelet, but I don't understand the instructions...grrr...hate when that happens!!

Morning Coffee

Slept in today, must have needed it, I am a night owl and cannot functional all in the morning until my hubby comes home from work and brings me home a Tim Horton's coffee. Any one who lives in Canada or has been to Canada knows that this coffee is something that you just cannot live without. Almost everyone I know rely on a coffee from there as part of their daily life.

Started of the day uploading pictures to my photography blog as my online portfolio, need to get really serious about making this photography dream a reality but there is much work to do!
Of course I had to get in a couple of episodes of Glee to start off the day, don't know what I am goin to do when I am up to date on all the episode, need to find another similar show or better, any suggestions?

Need to get something creative done today, not saying i will its just a goal I have set for myself, hopefully in tonight's post I will have some eye candy to blog about!!

New beginnings

No one is probably reading this, which is what I would expect because I haven't posted in six months, but I have come to a conclusion that there is always a second chance and I have been lying to myself about who I am for a long time. I am going to be more involved, discover who I am, hopefully gain back my blogger friends and make some new ones and be creative everyday, I hope. I don't want this blog to be strictly for cards, or even crafts. I want to document my life, amazing discoveries about myself and the world and live to the fullest using this blog to meet people and reintroduce me to myself. If anyone is out there reading, hope you'll come along for the ride and thanks for being there!!!

Today I like...

Glee!! I am watching season 2 right now and I am a total Gleek!!! i wish there was something around where I live that is like glee for age 20 and 30 somethings because I would be all over that in a second!!! If you are like me and discover shows and music on your own and not when the first episode premieres and don't want to be up to date with the now ignore that reasoning for this show. They are a talented bunch of people and there are some very interesting and important issues dealt with in the show that show awareness for almost everything a teenager or young adult can experience. I never react to television or movies no laughter no tears just a straight face, people think I am weird cause I NEVER react...ever. This is the first show in my life that has brought out any reaction at all, this says a lot!!!

Listening to...
Zac Brown Band - Free

Today I watched Glee, read and organized blogs and of course wrote on mine and set some goals for myself..I feel inspired!

This post was supposed to be published last night June 21, but I fell asleep!!! Another post to come today...hopefully!

Stay Tuned...

Ok I really am going to start blogging soon, with lots of intersting posts and pictures for all to see! Stay tuned, and PLEASE come back!!!