Friday, June 20, 2014

You Polish Decals on Nubbins!

 You Polish extended an offer to bloggers to review You Polish nail decals in exchange for the decals themselves! I had to wait a bit until I was able to polish my nails again and unfortunately all I have left is some really short nubbins. I will be reviewing the decals over the next couple of posts and providing my honest review.

I wanted to use the stars first because anything with stars are my favorite!
Here is the decal sheet before I used it
 I had to lighten up the next image to show the coolest part about the star decals.
 It is almost like getting two for the price of one because you can separate this decal, to have one small solid star and one slightly solid hollow star!
  This photo is NOT color accurate. The black decals are BLACK!
 Here is a more color accurate picture and the decal separated to show the two stars. The only thing I can say about these stars is that it was a bit of a pain to separate them but they did separate with a clean line and didn't rip. Just be careful when separating them.
 I painted my nails with Nabi Purple and then placed the decals on

You Polish has tons of high quality decals in various shapes and colors. To date, these would have to be the best quality for shape decals that I have used. I can't wait to show you the rest!

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Monday, June 16, 2014

Don't Quit

     I found this poem today over on A blog that teaches you how to do various things in random categories. Among the tutorials was this poem. It seemed really fitting for right now.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will

     When the road youre trudging seems all uphill
 When the funds are low and the debts are high
     And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
     Rest if you must, but just dont quit
Life is Crazy with its twist and turns
     As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
     When he might have won, had he stuck it out
Dont give up though the pace seems slow
     You may succeed with another blow
Success is failure turned inside out
     The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
     It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when youre hardest hit
     Its when things seem worst, that you must not quit.
~A poem by Clinton Howell

Sunday, June 15, 2014

High Expectations

I don't know if anyone is reading my blog anymore, but maybe....

I'm having a hard time...with life.

I'm not suicidal or anything, trust me if I made it out alive with what I have been through in the past 7 years I can overcome this too...but it's's different.

I think that the hardest thing is that I set my expectations for myself too high. I think I tell myself every morning that I am going to get up and tackle the world; then I am let down when I don't.

I have been dealing with depression for the past 7 years and right now it's really kicking my butt.

My anxiety is not as severe as it was and because of that I think "OK Candace! Make up for lost time" and then WHAM reality hits, and I realize though I am doing better then I was I still have a long road of recovery ahead of me. 2 years ago I was housebound and had been pretty much since 2007. Leaving my property created anxiety so bad that I would be scratching myself to release some of the adrenaline going through me. It was embarrassing, I sheltered myself from the world. I didn't want to give my sickness to anyone.

Moving out to Alberta was a good decision. I have come a LONG way since moving out here but there are some disadvantages.

1. My Family is almost 4000 km's away
2. Everything I have been familiar to my entire life is 4000 km's away

We would be foolish to move back to a city where the economy is horrible. Where there is no opportunity for room to grow. We live in a booming city that has so much potential and out here we can provide for ourselves.

 My husband had his third interview where they drove 5 hours to meet him for lunch. For what? To be Operations Manager for FedEx for Basically all of northern Alberta and British Columbia. So fingers crossed he gets the position.

Back home the jobs are so limited, you'd have to compete with 400 other people to work for McDonalds. (Nothing wrong with that I'm just stating an example) Out here there are more jobs then people.

So the dilemma, Stay out here where we can provide a better life for ourselves and be away from family and familiarity or move home and struggle to pay our bills.

It's obvious what the smarter decision is. And also I am the only one that feels this way.  My Husband will not move back. He loves it out here.

I feel so useless. I am trying to pursue my dreams but it's hard when my husband works long ours at his current job. I need someone for support. to be my rock, to help me grow.

My dreams are pretty big for someone that has spent the past 7 years sick. I am also feeling the pressure to get my butt in gear because I am 30. I push myself too hard, set to many expectations and then I feel like this.

I really hope sunny days are ahead...

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