My past nail-do's

Did these for a wedding I photographed had someone take the picture for me.  I can't remember the nail polish I used but I do know that the stickers came from the dollar store and I cut them into strips and put them on my nails.

These were done with the Sally Hansen nail strip's it was my first time using these and I was so fascinated by them!  That is the Bat rollercoaster at Canada's Wonderland you see in the background.

Ugh this is a mess.  Don't know what I used or what I was thinking....

I scanned my hand for this one....

These were nails I did for Christmas I took the picture in the car with my phone.  Yes I am a photographer and I can take better pictures I was going to get acrylics put on and wanted to get a pic of these before they were gone.  I don't know the nail polish but again the sticker was from the dollar store.

When I got my Bundle Monster stamping plates I had the idea to do this only realizing after that I had a matching shirt and that is probably subconsciously where I got the inspiration

I did these ones for he Santa Claus Parade and I painted the "tips" of my nails to make them appear longer and just put a sticker from the dollar store on them.

I will start documenting and listing what I use on my nails in all future posts.  Right now my nails are bare so there will be another post soon!

One thing leads to another...and another etc....

I am very easily sidetracked.  I don't know if that is just who I am or if it is my anxiety and my irrational fears.  I keep telling myself tomorrow is a new day to be productive and what do I do?  Turn one thing into another and another and another....browsing and searching for one thing on the net, get an idea an then search for another and it is just a vicious cycle.

I feel so lost right now.  I am not adjusting as well as Ryan is to this new life across the country, away from everything and everyone I have ever known.  I had to sacrifice almost everything I had and we don't have the money to go out and replace things.  And it is really hard to make friends.  I hope that by more frequently blogging I can make some friends online to help fill the void of loneliness.

I am into so many different things right now, all of them creative, but instead of creating my own things I am drooling at everyone else's works of art.  Right now I am into....

1) Nail Polish and nail art...I AM OBSESSED..and that is an understatement but alas that is a very expensive hobby....

2)  Drawing and coloring....I know I have got talent for drawing and I must start to draw!!! Coloring I am extremely passionate about as well because I love color but sometimes I question at 28 if i am too old?

3) Card making and paper crafts...I have my supplies in Ontario and I have to wait until i get them shipped here which won't be for a while.....

4) and of course my photography

Realizations

So I have been sitting here thinking trying to figure out why I am not "getting with the program" and I have come to a few realizations...

1.  I need to find my purpose..not necessarily for life but just for right now!
2. I need to be me and stop comparing myself to other people I am good enough to just be who I am and instead of being jealous of someone else's life be thankful for my own life and create it the way I want to!
3.  I have to get to know myself before I can get my head on straight again which #1 & #2 become important for this...
4. I need to be honest with myself and not always wonder/worry what other people think!

I thought that maybe I should scrap this blog and start a new one because I haven't been consistent with this one and make the new one super great and wonderful but then I thought wait a second I can't throw myself away and get a new Candace so why should I be able to do that to my blog? I then decided that I was going to keep this blog right beside me and it will transform and grow just as I need to do. 

It doesn't matter if anyone ever reads anything I write here (although it is nice to meet people and I would love to have people reading and enjoying my blog)  I am going to have this blog as my companion, use this blog for the reason it was intended, to document my life and everything in it.