Friday, June 20, 2014
You Polish Decals on Nubbins!
Monday, June 16, 2014
Don't Quit
Sunday, June 15, 2014
High Expectations
I'm having a hard time...with life.
I'm not suicidal or anything, trust me if I made it out alive with what I have been through in the past 7 years I can overcome this too...but it's hard...it's different.
I think that the hardest thing is that I set my expectations for myself too high. I think I tell myself every morning that I am going to get up and tackle the world; then I am let down when I don't.
I have been dealing with depression for the past 7 years and right now it's really kicking my butt.
My anxiety is not as severe as it was and because of that I think "OK Candace! Make up for lost time" and then WHAM reality hits, and I realize though I am doing better then I was I still have a long road of recovery ahead of me. 2 years ago I was housebound and had been pretty much since 2007. Leaving my property created anxiety so bad that I would be scratching myself to release some of the adrenaline going through me. It was embarrassing, I sheltered myself from the world. I didn't want to give my sickness to anyone.
Moving out to Alberta was a good decision. I have come a LONG way since moving out here but there are some disadvantages.
1. My Family is almost 4000 km's away
2. Everything I have been familiar to my entire life is 4000 km's away
We would be foolish to move back to a city where the economy is horrible. Where there is no opportunity for room to grow. We live in a booming city that has so much potential and out here we can provide for ourselves.
My husband had his third interview where they drove 5 hours to meet him for lunch. For what? To be Operations Manager for FedEx for Basically all of northern Alberta and British Columbia. So fingers crossed he gets the position.
Back home the jobs are so limited, you'd have to compete with 400 other people to work for McDonalds. (Nothing wrong with that I'm just stating an example) Out here there are more jobs then people.
So the dilemma, Stay out here where we can provide a better life for ourselves and be away from family and familiarity or move home and struggle to pay our bills.
It's obvious what the smarter decision is. And also I am the only one that feels this way. My Husband will not move back. He loves it out here.
I feel so useless. I am trying to pursue my dreams but it's hard when my husband works long ours at his current job. I need someone for support. to be my rock, to help me grow.
My dreams are pretty big for someone that has spent the past 7 years sick. I am also feeling the pressure to get my butt in gear because I am 30. I push myself too hard, set to many expectations and then I feel like this.
I really hope sunny days are ahead...
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Thursday, May 8, 2014
So Delicate! Successful nail stamping decals!
Friday, April 25, 2014
Thank you...Giveaway!
Sunday, March 16, 2014
PLEASE HELP ME CONTACT THE ELLEN DEGENERES SHOW!
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Garnier Fructis Damage Eraser VoxBox Review
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Sally Hansen (Insta-Dri) Wirlwind White
Monday, January 13, 2014
It's been Awhile...
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
DAY 1 DOTS
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Lilac-ing Discipline
I did my nails while taking a break from editing the 4 weddings I have photographed in the past couple of weeks. If I dont keep something on my nails at all times they will rip. They are not strong at all and I have never successfully grown them out. I have spent so much money on products to make my nails grow and I gave up. Somethings are not meant to be and I am not meant to have long nails.
I was going to use dark purple and black but summer is almost over and the darker colors will be coming out so I went with a more lighter version of what I had pictured. My Husband and my friend loved them. My husband was coming up with all different
color combinations and my friend was telling me that I have to leave them like this for a long time (that will not happen) soon as they chip off they go :)
I hope you like them, I have listed what I used in the picture of the nails. I think it is easier this way for reference.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Pink and Purple with Silver Stars
I havent been around in awhile, trying to get things in my life organized. I haven't been feeling very creative either. I had the urge to do my nails today and when I was doing them, my husband told me that these were one of his favorites. My hands are in rough shape right now so I'm a little embarrassed. I hope you can see past that :)
Monday, June 24, 2013
Getting Personal
I am on so much expensive medication that I was put on while in the hospital. I hate medication and have intentions of getting off of them. Because of that medication I have developed more and more physical and mental health issues.
I moved to Alberta in February 2012 and where we were living I did not have much access to get the help I needed however in March 2013 we moved to Edmonton where there are many more resources to help me get my life back.
I still have a long road ahead of me but I have had some progress and regained my hope when at times I just wanted to give up. That in itself is a breakthrough.
I am having to put some projects on hold so I can give my focus to therapy and getting better. I still will blog as much as I can but the specific projects will have to be postponed. That is why I haven't been around much, I hope you do understand.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Introducing Kandistar Polish!
Monday, May 20, 2013
Motivation Monday-May 20 2013
Did my post make you smile today? Which part made you smile?
*I can't remember links for the pictures. if you know please let me know and I will fix this :)
Monday, May 13, 2013
No Internet
I am slowly going crazy 1 2 3 4 5 6 switch
Crazy going slowly am I 6 5 4 3 2 1 switch
I had planned my big launch tomorrow but I have no internet and I can't do this from my phone :*(
PLANNING for next week to go on as scheduled. You will want to stick around!
Sorry everyone. Comment if you forgive me so I can feel a little better because I am super stressed right now. Thanks xoxo
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Apology's and Updates
Life has a funny way of twisting and turning throwing challenges at you and that is why I have had to delay my big blog transformation and indie polish launch. For the past week I have been getting so much accomplished! I have sent my launch polishes out for review and when the reviewers recieve them I will be sharing with you their reviews and launching at the same time! Stick with me I know my blog has been quiet lately but I have been working hard to make it awesome!
I will leave you with a quick swatch I did today of a polish I bought 2 months ago and haven't had the time to use Hope you like it!
NICOLE BY OPI
Selena Gomez Collection
SPRING BREAK
Amazing pink creme polish that is opaque in 2 coats and applies like a dream! I need to get the other polishes in this collection!

















