Life as Kandistar

Scanning My Life

2012-01-06T15:10:00.003-05:00

So with the time we move across the country to Alberta moving closer and closer, I am scanning a ton of old pictures which is kinda cool because I am getting to look back at memories that I haven't seen in a very long time. I plan to put my stuff on two externals in case one malfunctions. One little gem I cam across is this picture I drew about 10 years ago...I assure you that the stuff I am sorting through is extremely boring to anyone but me however this is my blog about my life so I can be as boring or interesting as I want. What is ironic about this picture is fast forward 10 years down the road I am so into drawing this kind of thing but I am always self doubting my artwork, thinking that it is not good enough and wishing that I could be as talented as some of the creations from people I see in other blogs and on Flickr. But this is pretty good evidence that I have talent!

So adding to my new Obsession

2012-01-03T22:24:00.001-05:00

I am now addicted to browsing through nail polish blogs, I love blogs, dont know what I would do without their existence! So upon browsing , one of the first blogs I find is a super cool blog with lots of new information that I must learn to have beautiful nails..and...She is having a give away! How cool is that? It is in celebration for reaching 400 followers! That is awesome I have yet to reach 20!

You an find her Blog Here! ~Aly Loves Lacquer~
I love that I can link other blogs and site easily, the new blogger is much easier!

A New Passion...an expensive one

2011-12-28T22:03:00.002-05:00

I have become pretty much obsessed with doing my nails. I am in my late 20's and for the first time I am interested in cosmetics...little bit of a late bloomer in that aspect? I think so. Every time we go into a store that might have nail polish I have to go look to see what they have. Can't always afford a new polish but it doesn't hurt to look. I also have a wonderful make-up outlet place where I live where I can get drug store brand make up for really cheap. Too bad when we move across the country in a few months I will not have that wonderful place anymore. Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure. I still am a little messy and need more practice but that will come.

OK so I had this awesome idea to do my nails with blue background and silver stars. That morning when I went to go get dressed I realized that I have a shirt the exact same, forgot I had the shirt and I assure you this wasn't planned!


These were done by using nail stickers from the dollar store, some blue polish painted on using tip stickers to give it a cleaner edge and some glitter top coat.

I will start listing the brands and such that I'm using but I forgot to write down what I had used here. Hope you like

xoxoxo

Christmas...where were you?

2011-12-26T14:01:00.003-05:00

Just to warn you that if you are still all warm and fuzzy with Christmas Cheer then I may suggest you do not read this post. Not that I am suspecting anyone is reading it anyways but its my blog...my life..the good and bad.

It's boxing day here in Canada today and I have to say I'm glad Christmas is over. For some reason I just wasn't feeling Christmas this year. Don't know why, but reasons I suspect are;

1) Seeing pictures of my Sister and family on Facebook, knowing I would only be able to enjoy their Christmas through pictures rather then being there with them

2) The emptiness I feel seeing everyone create Christmas memories with their children, reminding me that I still haven't had a baby.

3) The fact that my dad is a miserable grump and we couldn't live with my parents anymore (we were trying to stick it out until we moved to Alberta in 3 months) So in December alone we have had to move all our stuff out of where we were, move to the Sister in Laws for 2 weeks and then move into Ryan's parents place until we leave. I don't know where anything is right now and its frustrating.

So with all of that debilitating the Christmas spirit, Christmas day wasn't worth anything to change my mind. Here's the scoop on the day;

Slept on a chair Christmas eve. The mother in law had promised the sister in law that her and her famiy could have the spare bed...the only bed I have right now. There is a futon in the other room that they could have used but no, we had to give up our bed. Now if anyone out there knows what it is like to live with any sort of mental illness you will understand that your "safe place" is very important. I am at heightened anxiety already with all of the moving around and still trying to get used to having this room as my safe place for the next couple of months so when I had to give it up for the night? Not a very good idea....
Next morning, as a result of the night before, I woke up feeling something awful, HORRIBLE panic attack, probably up their among the top 10 worst. Anyways in-between all of this I managed to sit with the family as everyone opened gifts. We had already in November received a laptop from his parents so I knew nothing was for us from them, I am so greatful for that lap top! We knew that his Nanny still had to buy for us and everyone was sitting there opening gifts..everyone except me. The sister in law has a new boyfriend and he was being showered with gifts from Nanny gift certificates, tools, clothes, other guy stuff, Finally I get handed a bag, it is a blanket with figure skaters on it, probably $10 to make the whole thing. Then Nannys new boyfriend starts handing out cards to everyone...gift certificates, money......I didn't even get a card! I haven't done anything wrong, and my husband can't figure out what was going on either, maybe she is mad that I have "influenced" her grandson to move to Alberta, far away from her and her controlling ways and the funny thing is? I think that he is more excited to move then I am!

So continuing on with our day, something that we ate the night before we shouldn't have ate. Both of us were nauseous and had to skip out on dinner at Nanny's. What did we have for dinner? Vegetable soup and Macaroni and Cheese...yum...Merry Christmas...

Anyways now thats over with..I'm done venting, new years is just around the corner and I am determined to do thing I have been saying I am going to do, usually I'm much more cheery and greatful
....I promise xoxoxoxo

New Years Resolutions

2011-12-15T14:33:00.000-05:00

Getting so Close to Christmas now, and the new year, and my new years resolution? To be more organized, stay committed to things I have started and work on this blog. I think the best way to tackle this would be to have it open and ready to use during the day, add stuff s needed and then at the end of the day polish of the post and then publish it! Yes I think I will try that!
Here is some more songs for the 30 song Challenge, I will listen to the songs while I edit pictures and then post them here, that way I feel like I am doing two things at once! Hopefully you can click on the link and it will take you to the song!

a song that reminds of you of somewhere - New Radicals - You Get What You Give
I went to Cold Lake Alberta in the Summer of 2000 for Senior Leader's Course, which a selected number of Air Cadet's from across Canada get chosen to attend each summer. It is a very special privilege to be able to go there and I still to this day think it was one of the best experiences in my life. Half way through the course, one of the staff cadet's that was responsible for us, had to leave for medical reasons and I remember we all sat in a circle in the field and our staff played this song for us. It was really special and every time I hear it, I think of that moment.

a song that reminds you of a certain event - The Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling
I'm pretty sure the first time I heard this song was at my Sisters Wedding. This was the entry song for the bridal party and it was a pretty fitting song, as my sister was very attentive to detail for her wedding. Why this song stands out is because I don't get to see my sister very often as I am in Ontario and she is in Alberta. I am moving there in 4 months so that is about to change!

a song that you know all the words to - Fresh Prince of Bel Air Theme Song
I had to pick this song because I think almost everyone knows the words to this song, seems that if someone hears it somewhere or starts singing it, everyone joins in. I of course know tons more songs because I sing but this was the first song that came to my head when I thought of this.

a song that you can dance to - The Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
You would think that I am a diehard fan of the Black eyed peas but that is far from the truth, I am not that fond of them (or maybe I am subconsciously in denial?) but every time I hear this song I want to dance, even if that means sitting in my computer chair dancing.

And I will add more later.....

More of my 30 Songs....

2011-11-07T21:04:00.002-05:00

Both of the songs in this post remind me of someone special who passed away last May. He was an amazing man that I dated for a lengthy amount of time but it just didn't work out but he will always be in my heart.

a song that makes you sad-Only Time Enya- On the day of his Celebration of Life, there was a slideshow with pictures of his life and this song was the music for the slideshow. Now every time I hear it I think of him.

A song that reminds you of someone-It's been Awhile Staind- This was his favourite song and he sang it all the time at Karaoke, everytime I hear this song I get a little choked up.

The Least and Happy Post

2011-11-05T10:55:00.000-04:00

Your least favorite song-Don McLean-American Pie- My least favorite song surprisingly was harder to think of and I'm sure that there are more songs that I dislike more then this one but this one is defiantly a contender. It just goes on and on...and on...and on...zzzzzzzzzzzz

A song that makes you happy- Party Rock Anthem LFMAO - I don't know why but this song right now just makes me happy and makes me dance when I hear it, and that is happy enough for me

I am confident in talking to myself

2011-11-04T01:13:00.001-04:00

So it is pretty evident at this point, because I haven't been keeping up with my posts, that I am now just doing this for myself until I have people that start to come by and read my blog again. I found this list somewhere and I thought it would be fun to do. I am going to do it a bit different as it is supposed to be a "30 Day Song Challenge" but I want to do it all now , so I'm just going to make it a "30 Song Challenge, and have fun finding the songs and listening to them as I post.
This is the list of the Songs I have to find....I am taking this on as sort of a "personal scavenger hunt"

your least favorite song

a song that makes you happy
a song that makes you sad
a song that reminds you of someone
a song that reminds of you of somewhere
a song that reminds you of a certain event
a song that you know all the words to
- a song that you can dance to
a song that makes you fall asleep
a song from your favorite band
a song from a band you hate
a song that is a guilty pleasure
a song that no one would expect you to love
a song that describes you
a song that you used to love but now hate
a song that you hear often on the radio
a song that you wish you heard on the radio
a song from your favorite album
a song that you listen to when you’re angry
a song that you listen to when you’re happy
a song that you listen to when you’re sad
a song that you want to play at your wedding
a song that you want to play at your funeral
a song that makes you laugh
a song that you can play on an instrument
a song that you wish you could play
a song that makes you feel guilty
a song from your childhood
your favorite song at this time last year

your favorite song

Again......Another Chance...I will start Blogging!

2011-10-10T14:27:00.002-04:00

Stay tuned lots of updates and new posts to come!

My Bestfriends Baby Saira Rose, the reason I have been away from my blog

2011-08-03T14:23:00.004-04:00

Good reason for not writing on my blog is that i have been away for a couple of weeks at my Best Friends House 3+ hours away. She recently had a baby and named her Saira Rose

ABC'S of Candace

2011-07-14T20:12:00.001-04:00

Act your age? Nope more like 14, and that was 13 years ago

Born on what day of the week? Thursday

Chore you hate? Everything lol

Dad’s name? Barry but he goes by Wade

Essential makeup item? Nail Polish

Favorite actor? Johnny Depp

Gold or silver? White Gold

Hometown? Barrie Ontario

Instruments you play? Used to play bagpipes, trying to learn piano/guitar

Job? Aspiring Photographer

Kids? Hopefully soon

Living arrangements? Shared accommodations with my parents

Mom’s name? Penny

Need? Money

Overnight hospital stays? Psych Ward...yay lmao

Phobias? Death, spiders, crouds

Quote you like? Dreams are a wish your heart makes

Religious affiliation? No specific religion though I am spiritual

Siblings? 1 Step-sister, who i count as a full sibling

Time you wake up? 11am-12pm

Unique talent? Does persuasion count?

Worst habit? Smoking

X-rays you’ve had? Dental, chest, wrist, CT Scan

Yummy food you make? Taco Salad with Spinach Yummm!!!

Zodiac Sign? Capricorn

1,2,3 Repeat...

2011-06-29T13:31:00.008-04:00

I have been having High anxiety this past almost two weeks which hinder my ability to be creative. However I seem to be accomplishing stuff in rhythmic fashion

one line of making bracelet
scan one picture onto computer
Do one Griddler puzzle
Repeat

While doing this I am catching up on past seasons of Big Brother USA on You Tube...love that site!!! Wish they had a Canadian Big Brother, we need more reality shows up here!!!

This is the bracelet I made today, I love making bracelets, I feel so accomplished when they are finished. i found the pattern over at www.friendship-bracelets.net Awesome site.

Started to make a hemp bracelet, but I don't understand the instructions...grrr...hate when that happens!!

Morning Coffee

2011-06-22T14:15:00.002-04:00

Slept in today, must have needed it, I am a night owl and cannot functional all in the morning until my hubby comes home from work and brings me home a Tim Horton's coffee. Any one who lives in Canada or has been to Canada knows that this coffee is something that you just cannot live without. Almost everyone I know rely on a coffee from there as part of their daily life.

Started of the day uploading pictures to my photography blog as my online portfolio, need to get really serious about making this photography dream a reality but there is much work to do!
Of course I had to get in a couple of episodes of Glee to start off the day, don't know what I am goin to do when I am up to date on all the episode, need to find another similar show or better, any suggestions?

Need to get something creative done today, not saying i will its just a goal I have set for myself, hopefully in tonight's post I will have some eye candy to blog about!!

New beginnings

2011-06-21T23:29:00.006-04:00

No one is probably reading this, which is what I would expect because I haven't posted in six months, but I have come to a conclusion that there is always a second chance and I have been lying to myself about who I am for a long time. I am going to be more involved, discover who I am, hopefully gain back my blogger friends and make some new ones and be creative everyday, I hope. I don't want this blog to be strictly for cards, or even crafts. I want to document my life, amazing discoveries about myself and the world and live to the fullest using this blog to meet people and reintroduce me to myself. If anyone is out there reading, hope you'll come along for the ride and thanks for being there!!!

Today I like...

Glee!! I am watching season 2 right now and I am a total Gleek!!! i wish there was something around where I live that is like glee for age 20 and 30 somethings because I would be all over that in a second!!! If you are like me and discover shows and music on your own and not when the first episode premieres and don't want to be up to date with the now ignore that reasoning for this show. They are a talented bunch of people and there are some very interesting and important issues dealt with in the show that show awareness for almost everything a teenager or young adult can experience. I never react to television or movies no laughter no tears just a straight face, people think I am weird cause I NEVER react...ever. This is the first show in my life that has brought out any reaction at all, this says a lot!!!

Listening to...
Zac Brown Band - Free

Today I watched Glee, read and organized blogs and of course wrote on mine and set some goals for myself..I feel inspired!

This post was supposed to be published last night June 21, but I fell asleep!!! Another post to come today...hopefully!

Stay Tuned...

2011-01-24T16:52:00.001-05:00

Ok I really am going to start blogging soon, with lots of intersting posts and pictures for all to see! Stay tuned, and PLEASE come back!!!

My Ipod Shuffle Quiz, this is fun and very funny!

2010-12-09T14:50:00.003-05:00

Here is a fun little post... something to do when you know you need to post something but you are having writer's block...some of these are soo funny and soo true or soo totally untrue!

iTunes Tag
1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

1.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
"Till We Run Out of Road" Jewel (fits)
2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
"Bleeding Love" Leona Lewis (hmm)
3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Don't wanna Lose You Now" Backstreet Boys (not the most fitting)
4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"From the Bottom of my Broken Heart" Britney Spears (lol)
5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"Heaven" DJ Sammy (fits but kinds freaky)
6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Feels Like Heaven" Urban Cookie (seriously two heaven type songs in a row, is this telling me something, I sure hope not, not yet anyways)
7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Good Friend to me" Jessica Andrews (this song so fits my IPod must know what I am doing.
8.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
"Greased Lightning" Grease (lmao)
9.WHAT IS 2+2?
"Near you Always" Jewel (aww it fits and it is cute)
10.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
"Im the Only One" Melissa Ethridge (rotflmao)
11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"I want you" BDB feat Lisa 9again awwww)
12.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"For the girl who has everything" N Sync (my Husband cracked up on this one)
13.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Life on Mars" The Moffatts (is my IPod trying to tell me something?)
14.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Hand in Hand" Hanson (cute...)
15.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Hear Me" Mr X (um ok...)
16.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Little Sister" Jewel (um sure)
17.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"See me climb" Stealth (up to heaven I guess [I hope])
18.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Adrian" Jewel (huh)
19.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
"The Fire inside" Bob Seger (ok sure...)
20.WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
"Sanctuary" Madonna (...)
21.HOW WILL YOU DIE?
"Ill be there for you" The Moffatts (not sure how that will work.. or maybe...)
22.WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
"I kissed a girl" Katy Perry (this one has to be my favourite rotfl hee hee)
24.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
"Redneck woman"- Gretchen Wilson (pretty funny too)
25.WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
"Tears in Heaven" Eric Clapton (Again whats with all of this heaven talk, plus I'm already married.
26.WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
"My oh My" Aqua (must be that bad my IPod wont even tell me lol)
27.DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
"Look at you" Hanson (he now dont get hostile)
28.IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
"Who will save your soul" Jewel (alltime favourite song)
29.WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
"Savin me" Nickelback (So true)
30.WHERE WILL YOU TRAVEL TO?
"Take a bow" Madonna What country is that in again?)
31.WHAT IS THE BEST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
"But I do Love you" Leanne Rimes (awww thats sweet)
32.WHAT DO YOU OFTEN FIND YOURSELF WANTING TO YELL AT PEOPLE?
"bullet proof" Goo Goo dolls (I'd like to think I am)
33.WHAT DO YOU CALL YOURSELF?
"Drips" Eminem (not a nice name you mean Ipod you)
34. WHAT DOES THE PERSON YOU LIKE THINK OF YOU?
"It's Allright" Sista (husband laughed at this one too)
35. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
"Business" Eminem (yes so you better do this fun activity too!
...okay, that's it, friends. Your turn. Here's to good iFate and clever randomness!
This was pretty fun you dont have to use an I pod just anything with a shuffle option or even the radio, I want to know if you did this so leave a comment letting me know, I think this is kinds cool cause then you can hear other peoples music tastes and music from all over the world DO IT I KNOW YOU WANT TO!! Please for me lol its fun, and it picked out the oldies that I copied onto my IPod from my old CD's for several songs ahh reminiscing.

Love Candace

I'm in a Christmas mood today...

2010-11-24T17:23:00.006-05:00

Just a little over a month until Christmas, I am a little sad that I will not be participating in any craft fairs this year but this just means that i will have an abundance of stuff to sell next year!

This card I made for my one of me dear friends baby boy he was born on September 16th 2010 so this will be his first Christmas. he is the cutest little boy, looks just like his mommy.

I have decided that i am going to enter this card into the following challenges;

1) http://www.delightfulsketches.blogspot.com/ - winter weather- (didn't make deadline whoops)

2) http://www.treehousestamps.blogspot.com/ - glitter

3) http://www.daringcardmakers.blogspot.com/ - we three (three snowflake embellishments)

4) http://www.ecpchallenges.blogspot.com/ - snow

5) http://www.iftheshoefitsscrapit.blogspot.com/ - tinsel (glitter)

6) http://www.papercutzchallenge.blogspot.com/- bling

7) http://www.stampinbsdesignteam.blogspot.com/- snowflakes

8) http://www.stampinfortheweekend.blogspot.com/- winter

9) http://www.catchthebugblog.blogspot.com/ - Christmas Crafts

10) http://www.challengeupyourlife.blogspot.com/- St. Nicholas

Hope I win, I am really proud of this card and I hope little Tyson will like it, to see the glimmer click on the card for a bigger picture, the blue background paper is glitter, the image is colored with glitter gel pens, and i used little gems on different places on the card so there is lots of glimmer and bling. Thanks for visiting please leave a comment I really do appreciate them!

Love Candace

Three Challenges today!

2010-11-17T21:18:00.007-05:00

Just a quick card for me today, I wanted to be productive even though it was kinda crappy today, I have found a few different challenges for this card, which even though was easy it was fun to put together. I used that sparkly craft foam again as a window pane which Santa and his reindeer are looking in. I have used little pearl stick ons to be snowflakes click the picture to look more closely hope you enjoy, here are the challenges:

1) http://www.craftycalendarchallenge.blogspot.com/ - snowflakes

2) http://www.delightfulsketches.blogspot.com/ - glitter

3) http://www.dutchdare-cardchallenges.blogspot.com/ - clean and simple

Challenge card and other stuff!

2010-11-15T19:28:00.004-05:00

A very productive day today, I worked on my Art Journal and I made a card slowly i am getting back into the swing of things I just don't like how my craft room has no TV or computer so I am working in silence and all of my card making stuff is up there and there is just too much to lug down two flights of stairs every time I want to make a card, and I have a teeny tiny living room so I can't migrate all of my stuff down here permanently oh well, my mom comes and keeps me company when I am making a card...OK back on topic I am so happy with this card and I decided that I would enter it into
1) http://www.everybody-art-challenge.blogspot.com/ - sketch
2) www.creativecraftchallenges.blogspot.com- stars
This sketch was so fun I had a blast using that glittery foam, I have no idea where i got it but I want more!

The next picture i wanted to share with you is one that we took when we were waiting for hubby to pick up a jacket that he bought off of Kijiji. We were sitting by this beautiful lake in Victoria Harbour Ontario and the sun was setting and it was so beautiful!

The third and fourth pictures are me and my hubby making hemp necklaces, bracelets and anklets, we have a couple of vendors that buy them off of us and we need the extra money so we have been pretty much doing this constantly for the past few days to bring some extra cash in. Isn't my hubby cute?

Last picture is of me, and I look so big its because my knees are underneath and stretching out my nightie, no by no means am I skinny but this picture makes me look weirdly proportioned

Well hope more people start coming back around I fell kinda lonely in my corner of the blogging world I have had a few comments which I greatly appreciate, I am always checking to see if someone has visited, I know that my blog has been inactive but I'm back!

If you read this can you please read my last post I'd love to get some answers on previous questions I have asked in my last entry thanks everyone!

Love Candace

Just wondering....

2010-11-09T22:58:00.002-05:00

Whooo hooo two posts in a row I told you I am back on track! Feeling kinda crummy today so not much in the line of productivity was done, blog hopped a little, drooled over some stamps I would love to have but can't afford lol such is life. I would like to do a swap of some sorts and would like to know how and where to get involved, so if anyone out there is still reading this I would love some advice! Till tomorrow...

Im Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (with a challenge Card!)

2010-11-08T20:31:00.003-05:00

Ok so I haven't been keeping up with this whole blog thing, starting now I am going to try to post everyday whether it be creations that I make, interesting blogs or websites I find etc, but I will get readers coming back to my blog I will!

Whooo hooo this is my first card in forever, I dint have access to my craft room for the past couple of months but now I do so on with creating! I am so excited! I have decided to enter this card into just one challenge to warm myself up and that challenge will be
www.cardpositioningsystems.blogspot.com which is a sketch this week, I had lots of fun with it and I hope you like it! I have already started my card for tomorrow I have a lot of catching up to do, and I miss the blogging world so leave some comments if you come visit to let me know that you are still out there!

Ok Major Update.....

2010-09-24T21:04:00.002-04:00

Yes I have been bad with blogging, bad with card making , bad with really doing anything in general, however i have some news if anyine is stilll out there reading this....

On Monday I am going to a treatment center for 8 weeks, I come home only on the weekends and this is going to help me get better! Then i will be back to regular Candace (hopefully) and I will start crafting and posting again, I will be visiting all of your blogs and seeing all of your creations and it will be great! Sorry I haven't been the best online friend but being sick sucks and I will try my hardest to be a better friend when I am better, i will post updates of my progress on the weekends while I am home and when I get home I am going to get in touch with all of you!

Thanks for understanding

Candace

I am an Artist!!

2010-08-26T12:06:00.000-04:00

You Are 61% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word.

You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

Some more Journal pages,,,,only one person in the Giveaway!

2010-08-15T16:15:00.002-04:00

Here are 2 more pages from my Journal, as you can see the yellow tabs at the top, those are unfinished pages and this is why I can only post a few at a time. I still only have one entry for my giveaway! Is anyone out there reading my blog? I miss you guys, come back please!!!! I'll come visit you and then you come visit me ok? Am I talking to myself? I think I am....lol.

If your Lurking leave a comment I will be forever greatful!

Love Candace

No one wanted my Giveaway?

2010-08-06T20:57:00.003-04:00

I had a giveaway and I guess no one is reading my blog so I will extend it to Sept 1 8pm EST.

I am going to start posting pictures from my art journal and if no one comes to look at them at least I have posted them.

1) This is the first page of my journal, though it is not the first page in the book, that is still blank, I am one of those people who don't know what to put on the very first page...

2) Sorry this picture is sideways..?..This is obviously my name which I had fun zentangling www.zentangle.com

and things about me, took forever to do the letters for my name but very relaxing while watching our favourite movie Pirates of the Caribbean.

3) The next two pages are what I am proud of, there is writing in the word itself but its hard to read because I used a gel pen. On the second page re pictures of what I described on the previous page.

Pictures

Clockwise from left, bottom pic described last

1)My first day of school

2) my first visit with my firstborn nephew

3) Me in my air cadet uniform

4) Me getting stuck on this humongous climbing thing which my dad helped me through

5)My baby picture

Hope you enjoyed these pages more to come tomorrow, Sorry I have been a little hostile about my blog I just wish people would come and visit, I miss you guys and I am going to be getting back into the groove. I am feeling much better then before so thanks for your prayers and thoughts.

Love Candace

Is any one out there? I have a giveaway!!!!!

2010-07-11T23:55:00.006-04:00

Here are the pictures I said that I was going to upload in my last post, blogger finally let me do it! This first one here is a digital scrap booking piece I did for my bestie from a program that my mom bought, not sure what it is called, this is only my second attempt at digital scrap booking, the first was for my dad for fathers day, which I didn't get a picture of. This now hangs above her water cooler in her kitchen.

The second one I did was also for the same person, I used the technique which is called zentangles, the website for this is http://www.zentangle.com/.

The third one is what is going to be a very large wall piece, I am doing my Husband and my names, that's 11 letters, 11 frames!

Ok so I decided that I am going to do a giveaway to bring back my readers and hopefully some new ones, I am giving away a personalized picture like the one's that you see above, it can have your initial, your name, any name for that matter, a short quote, a simple shape whatever you wish, If your name is drawn on Wed July 28 I ill get to work and make one how you wish! i can do colors of your choosing, or just black and white. To enter here's what you got to do.

1) Leave a comment in this post, with your favourite quote or saying and the author.

2) Post a pic of the "C" picture on your blog in your sidebar.

3) Tell me where you are coming from , are you my follower, did you come from a sidebar

I hope to meet new people and make new friends with this giveaway. I will draw July 28 Good Luck everyone!

Hi Everyone!

2010-07-01T12:25:00.003-04:00

I am so sorry, I have been such a bad blogger, and blog friend! I am going to try my hardest to start posting as much as possible, things have just been really bad for the past little while, I have been at my lowest point in my life with my mental health and during this time a previous boyfriend of mine died in a car crash, which was very painful for those who loved him to get through. Things are starting to look up, I am on new medication and I am going to be getting acupuncture so everything is worth a try right? The only concerns that I have right now are my thyroid is acting up and my white blood cells are high and the doctor doesn't know why so I have to get some tests done to find out what is going on. I haven't even been making cards, but that is going to start up again too. But don't think that I am not going to share some pictures with you, on my comeback post! I have been drawing and I would like to share!

Grr blogger is not letting me upload, I will try again in a bit with a new post, sorry!

Hope my friends are still around....

2010-05-31T17:40:00.002-04:00

It has been nearly a month since I posted anything and I am so sorry, I hope not to lose any one of you as followers as I value your friendship. I have probably been at my worst this past month so my doctor finally put me on some stronger medication, it has been hard and I dont think things can get much worse so it can only be uphill from here. I havent been crafting making cards or anything but that is hopefully to change in the next week or so, thanks so much for understanding and looking foward to getting back into the swing of things soon, stick around!

Love Candace

My Mommy's (yes I call her that) Mother's day card

2010-05-04T21:46:00.003-04:00

I made this card for my Mom, she really likes cats and hello kitty and I wanted to make her something that would display pretty. This is my first time making one of these cards and they look pretty but are a pain in the butt, there was alot of trial and error here! I am not entering it into any challenges because my OCD told me not to. Confused? I was planning on entering it into challenges but then something in my mind told me that something bad would happen if I did. Sounds silly but this happens to me all of the time, like if I am making a collage and I cut something out for it and go to use it something tells me not to again because something will happen or if I check to see if the door is locked and then walk away and say did I check it, when I try to reassure I did and walk away, I get a bad feeling and must go check it again. All of this on top of my anxiety whew! I'm not going to lie I like entering challenges with the hopes of winning, especially if there is a prize, because I still haven't gotten out to spend that money I still can't leave the house, and I need new card making stuff, oh well hopefully my conscience will let me enter a card tomorrow. I sure wish Santa would come now, cause sending my husband shopping isn't going to work and Santa knows what a card maker needs to make her happy, too bad I have 7 months till Christmas for him to come!

Thought I would share a pic of my lovely bratty spoiled kitty "Princess" Belle. She thinks she is a dog, she barks, its cute, and weird but I love her.

Niece's birthday card Challenge entry

2010-04-29T19:01:00.003-04:00

I posted two posts yesterday and no one came to visit, guess the posts were boring lol!

I found out today that I made top 5 at www.craftycardmakers.blogspot.com!
Yay me, made my day a little brighter!

I made a card for my Niece's 10th Birthday, really wanted to accomplish something today and I am so glad that I finished a card! I used a freebie image from Dustin Pike who is an awesome illustrator and creates amazing digi images if you haven't been to his blog you should go, his images are awesome www.dustinpike.blogspot.com. I just wish there was a way I could buy his images because I would in a second, the ones he has for sale are drool worthy, and I would by all of them they are very low priced and well worth it, but alas I cant purchase something over the computer and pass cash through the computer screen or I would.

I am entering this card in the following challenges:
www.charismacards.blogspot.com - Girly with flowers
www.craftycardmakers.blogspot.com - Desert Island (can't live without sticky gems need to have them!)
www.creativecraftchallenges.blogspot.com- blooms (flowers)
www.dareu2digistamp.blogspot.com- flowers
www.everybody-art-challenge.blogspot.com- song title (The happy birthday song counts right?)
www.fridaysketchersblog.blogspot.com- sketch
www.fussyandfancychallenge.blogspot.com- birthday with sweet treat
www.inkyimpressionschallenge.blogspot.com- 3 layers 2 DPS 1 ribbon (ribbon in center underneath star brads)
www.kraftinkimmiestamps.blogspot.com- flowers
www.magicalcraftsfortnightlychallenge.blogspot.com- girly
www.onestitchatatimechallenge.blogspot.com- flowers
www.ourcreativecorner6.blogspot.com- blooms (flowers)
www.paperjewelsstamps.blogspot.com- bling
www.pileitonchallenge.blogspot.com- Make it sweet
www.ssdschallenge.blogspot.com- girlie
www.bellichallenge.blogspot.com- Birthday
www.sewmanychallenges.blogspot.com- anything goes
www.stampwithus.blogspot.com- Birthday
www.onestopcraftchallenge.blogspot.com- metallic (star brads)

Whew didn't think I would qualify for that many! looking for these challenges keeps me busy, take up a good hour to go through my list to See what I qualify for and then each morning I go through each of the challenge blogs to see if they have a new challenge. I am learning with my anxiety that I have to keep my mind focused on other things so I don't have time to think about my anxiety so if going through all of the challenges takes up some of my time then its all good, I need some excitement in my life and I love the anticipation of entering challenges! Hope you don't find it rude I enter so many.

Really want to leave the house I am getting cabin fever I think, I am going stir crazy, and I want to stock up my stash of craft supplies so bad, I was talking with Ryan today and we realized I have pretty much been confined to the house for almost 6 months! That's crazy, I have been sick for almost 3 years but its this past 6 months have been the worst, and the past month the absolute worst. How much longer nobody knows but I know I am not going to wake up tomorrow and be better and that's kind of depressing. Anyways enough of the depressing stuff for today, just feels good to get it out, you know what I mean?

Garage Sale finds on April 24

2010-04-28T21:03:00.004-04:00

This is my second post for today yay me! If you want to read my last post you know where to find it, just letting you know it is there! I wanted to show what I got at garage sales this past weekend, I absolutely love them, and in the morning I am at my best, and my anxiety levels are low so I am able to go out for a hour or so, not long enough for the stores to open and to shop but early enough to find some thrifty finds!
Here is a list of the stuff I got from left to right
1) All three sisterhood of the travelling pants books (I liked the movie)$1.50
2) 12 Spools of ribbon (only eight shown)- $2.00 for 12
3) Wool - $1.00 for all
4) Slippers (so comfortable) $5.00
5)huge box of glitter leaves flowers etc. (click on pic for closer look)- $3.00 for box
6) maze book- 25 cents
7) In next picture see that desk? I got it for $5.00, yes you are reading that right, awesome deal! We didn't have a computer desk and this family was moving and wanted to get rid of it because they had bought their son anew one for their new home!

Total spent at Garage Sales= $17.75

Pretty good don't you think? Its a full moon tonight and it is pretty If you live somewhere that it is just becoming nighttime now, look out the window for the moon!

Its a sad day...moving on...

2010-04-28T15:36:00.005-04:00

Yesterday two of my rats died, I will spare the details as Ryan said that I don't want to know them. We have had the first two Rats Disney and Lola for two years and more recently we got Coco and Chanel. It was Disney and Coco that passed on, Disney was my rat, the first one we got and anyone that has had rats for pets understands what great pets they make. For those of you squirming, they are not your gross street rats, and they are really smart. Don't believe in the stereotype of rats! I never got a picture of Coco but here is a picture of Disney

It is just the same as losing a cat or a dog it is really sad, they were our babies and we will miss them RIP Disney and Coco. ( Trying not to cry as I type this)

Ok I'm going to change the subject to get my mind off of that. Thank you for your advice on where to spend that money, I have yet to go shopping because I have not been well enough to leave the house, I tried twice and couldn't do it, I got frustrated because I don't know why this is the way it is for me but it's frustrating to not beable to go shopping and from the way things are going doesn't look like its going to be anytime soon. I want new stuff to play with!

Today I am going to try and make some cards, I have been coloring some images I just havent been up to the craft room which is another thing too, I feel comfortable and relaxed in my room, and to go upstairs is a big challenge for me but I want to try today!

Opinions Please ASAP thanks love you guys!

2010-04-22T14:29:00.002-04:00

OK so I am on Ontario Disability which is basically like a pension kind of for people that cant work due to disabilities. They offer a one time start up cheque for people that are receiving disability when you either go back to work to buy work supplies or if you are looking at starting a home based business they give you this one time amount. My case worker was over yesterday and I told her that I plan to get more serious with my card making hopefully turning it into a source of income down the road, she agreed that I could benefit from the start up cheque and I am getting it tomorrow. It is for the amount of $500CAD. Now because my husband and I don't have loads of money we obviously want to buy something I normally wouldn't be able to buy otherwise maybe. I looked into the Cricut obviously that was my first choice but they are really expensive and the cartridges are expensive as well I would never be able to afford to buy these cartridges. So I looked at the Cuttlebug and it seems more reasonable but not a whole lot of choice of stuff I can go to the stores here in Barrie and buy, I don't know what to do, I would like opinions regarding what would be a wise investment with this money, I don't even necessarily need either of these machines, I just want to spend this money wisely because I will never have this to spend on card making stuff ever again, Please help, I 'm stressed out, I know you guys are all well educated in card making and will help me!

Multiple challenges!

2010-04-19T21:10:00.005-04:00

I made this card for my Mother in law for her birthday, this is the first time I have used a Magnolia stamp so I hope I did it proud, I loved coloring her with my gel pens, thanks again Lyn for the stamps, now that my craft room is workable I can start stamping! I was leaning the card up against my cat because she wouldn't move when I was trying to take the picture so it looks a little crooked but that is OK, you get the idea. The challenges I have entered this card into are listed below. Read below for more life updates.

http://www.creataliciouschallenges.blogspot.com/ - Flowers and wings (stamp has wings flower near sentiment)
http://www.creativecardcrew.blogspot.com/ - Happy Birthday
http://www.cutecardthursday.blogspot.com/ - Touchy feely things with texture ( ribbon, flower)
http://www.klstampinnscrappin.blogspot.com/ - Bling (jewels on sentiment and balloon)
http://www.magicalcraftsfortnightlychallenge.blogspot.com/ - Something for the Girls
http://www.mytimetocraftchallenge.blogspot.com/ - pretty pearls ( on the base of the balloon and on her hair bow
http://www.onestopcraftchallenge.blogspot.com/ - things with wings (stamp has wings)
http://www.papertakeweekly.blogspot.com/ - cutie pie (stamp is cute!)
http://www.pixieduststudiopixiechallenge.blogspot.com/ - use green as the main color
http://www.stampotiquedesignerschallenge.blogspot.com/ - girly girl

So yes more about the hospital as some have been asking, the waiting list is so long that they think I will get in around January, yes you read that right, is that not horrible? I don't know how they expect me to go on for that much longer, I don't know how much worse things could get and how much worse I can feel let alone how long I have to do it for, everyday is a struggle and I hate it. When I get better I am going to fight the system to get this whole waiting list thing changed, the money is not provided by the government to fund more mental health facilities therefore the wait times are terrible, voices need to be heard things need to be changed, and when I am stronger my voice will be heard! ( OK enough of the ranting and political stuff)

I so would like to get out of the house, and do some supply shopping its something that I just cannot send my Husband to do, he doesn't understand, there are thing I need and can't go out to get them!

My husband made this card for his mother and he said I could post it I think that he did an awesome job, even though the picture I took of it isn't that great

Cheering my self up....

2010-04-11T21:32:00.002-04:00

Lets get down to business, first I am entering this card into several challenges

www.adifferentchallengeaweek.blogspot.com - Letter "B" (Butterflies)
www.corrosivechallengesbyjanet.blogspot.com - Texture (velvet ribbon)
www.craftycardmakers.blogspot.com - Challenge Challenge (made my first easel card!)
www.cutecardthursday.blogspot.com- Monomania (Shades of green)
www.flutterbywednesdays.blogspot.com - (butterflies)
www.fridaysketchersblog.blogspot.com - sketch
www.incywincydesigns.blogspot.com- fancy folds (easel card)
www.mytimetocraftchallenge.blogspot.com - on the spot (dotted paper on base of card)
www.ourcreativecorner6.blogspot.com - Bows
www.pixieduststudiopixiechallenge.blogspot.com - things with wings (butterflies)
www.pollycraftchallengeblog.blogspot.com- anything goes
www.simpledoodles.blogspot.com- inspire others (easel card)
www.stampwithsarahkay.blogspot.com - green
www.thesecretcraftersaturdaychallenge.blogspot.com - get well soon
www.totallygorjuss.blogspot.com - texture (velvet ribbon)

Whew now that's out of the way, hope I win! I tried to make an easel card because I have never made one and they are much easier then I thought, this will be a card I make quite often, I really enjoyed it. I chose to make a get well card I guess to cheer my self up, I have been feeling really bad this past week, the hubby says its the worst that its been in the three years that I have been sick. I have decided not to leave the house, because I cant make it past the front door, I am going stir crazy being trapped in here though but I know going out will be much worse. I am OK while my meds are fresh in me but they wear off quick, and then I have to wait till my next dose, so right now I am fine. but wont be long enough to go anywhere. No shopping for me. Anyways enough about the sad stuff, I don't want to drive you all away, because who wants to read a depressing blog?

In the near future...

2010-04-03T14:52:00.003-04:00

Hopefully I will be posting more creations soon, however just a heads up as to what is going on with my life.

I had a doctor's appointment on Wednesday past, and he told me that he didn't think that just going in to see him once a week was enough. He says my anxiety and other problems are more serious then what he thought when he decided to take me on as a patient so......

Next week he is going to be starting a process to send me to a hospital in Whitby Ontario which deals with mental disorders. I will be staying there for I don't know how long, he feels that I need round the clock treatment so I can get better sooner, because it has almost been 3 years that I have been this sick.

It's kind of embarrassing to think that I am going to be in a mental hospital, not something to be proud of, I have been in the hospital before but not one just dedicated to mental illness and it was hard, because despite the anxiety I am functional, I am not a danger to anyone, and I can think clearly, I don't like that anxiety is under the category mental illness because of stereotypes, its sounds worse then it really is.

I don't know exactly when I will be going, could be a week or even a month from now, it is when they have the room for me, its just a waiting game, hopefully I will have more creations to post before then but if not please do stick around because I will be back, I'm just letting everyone know now whats up just in case.

Several themed Challenges, one card!

2010-03-29T00:18:00.005-04:00

Picture one is blurry could not get my camera to focus but...
Picture two is in focus and look, there is a surprise, a baby chick who wants to party because it's spring time and he is here in time for Easter! ( I am sleep deprived just go with me...)

Ive never entered a card into more then one challenge before but I was organizing my challenge list and there was many challenges that this card fit into and I see other people do it so why not the challenges I have entered are:

http://charismacardz.blogspot.com/ - Spring

http://corrosivechallengesbyjanet.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://craftycreationschallenges.blogspot.com/ - Babies, human or animal

http://creativecardcrew.blogspot.com/ - Going Dotty

http://daringcardmakers.blogspot.com/ - Easter Eggs

http://ecpchallenges.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://everybody-art-challenge.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://fussyandfancychallenge.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://incywincydesigns.blogspot.com/ - Easter/Spring

http://just-hanna-stamps.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://magicalcraftsfortnightlychallenge.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://paperplaychallenges.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://pileitonchallenge.blogspot.com/- Animal- Riffic

http://pollycraftchallengeblog.blogspot.com/ - Sparkly Things

http://resqchallenge.blogspot.com/ - Eggs

http://scrap-creations1.blogspot.com/ - Spring

http://trimmiescraftchallenge.blogspot.com/ - Easter

http://stampinroyalty.blogspot.com/ - Glitter

Whew that was a lot and now I have to go back and link them all to my blog post. I had a lot of fun making this card i like that the little birdie is hidden and I used a brad so the egg would open and you can see inside, I personally haven't seen this anywhere so I feel pretty smart, because usually I am not so creative. This is on purple card stock but you can't really tell again they are not the greatest pictures.

Last thing, i am requesting every ones snail mail addresses which you can send via jvc_9@hotmail.com, when you get the chance please do, and type it exactly how it is to go on the envelope, I know address formatting is different in different places. have a good night/morning everyone and hopefully with all of these challenges I have entered I will do good on one, or maybe even win one!

*Hugs* Candace

Lexi's Creations Challenge 10

2010-03-24T19:34:00.004-04:00

This is for the challenge over at Lexi's creations, the theme is Easter and I am also entering to try and become a DT member for this blog, I tried a gazillion times to take this picture, and a s I have never made a card like this I didn't know how to photograph it but regardless I think that it came out OK. Sorry not much chatter tonight but I am feeling kind of crummy, Will post later!

Cute Card Thursday Challenge-104

2010-03-23T18:41:00.002-04:00

This is my entry for the challenge over at Cute Card Thursday, it's nice to be creating again, even though stuff still isn't organized. The theme was Anniversaries however birthdays and weddings were also acceptable, I decided to make a card for my Best friend who's birthday is tomorrow.

In the picture it looks like it says 20th but in real life it does say 28th! I plan to fill the inside of the card with memories over the past year, make it like a collage, I just didn't want to do it before as this card is being entered into a challenge. Her special nickname just between us is Dolly but her real name is Tanya and my nickname is Sunni, but I'm sure you can see that on the card.

The pictures below are of a new friend we have that lives in the tree in our backyard, a raccoon! We live in the city in a very busy neighbourhood but I guess it likes our tree so that is where it sleeps during the day getting all rested up for a night of getting into garbage cans and causing other mischief!

I have two more cards made but I am having a problem getting a good enough picture of them so I will keep trying and have them up soon!

Drumroll Please.......I made a card(Our Creative Corner- Color Challenge)!!!!!!!!

2010-03-19T16:15:00.003-04:00

I have not given everyone a chance to read my last post and already I have a new one, I'm on a roll, so if you haven't read the last one you know what to do, I just want to make sure everyone reads it and goes and visits the blog I mentioned. What blog you ask? Well read previous to find out!

I did a challenge over at Our Creative Corner, It was a color challenge, and yes it was a Challenge, the colors (Yellow, Pink, Green, Brown) are colors I would never use together but I made it work and I think it came out OK considering I haven't made a card in so long!

I would like to share a website with you that I have been having great fun with www.picnik.com. There is so much fun stuff to do with pictures, lots of fun effects, photo correction, text most of it is free, you can get a membership and pay for way more cool features which I can't do but nevertheless I am having fun with the free stuff on this site, I made my card look better then the actual picture, and I also made my brand new blog header with it. I'm still learning but the free stuff is totally worth checking out!

Coming soon...

2010-03-18T20:17:00.003-04:00

So we are finally getting the craft room organized so I hope to have some cards up here in one or two days, I just posted some cards in the mail to some of you but I'm not telling who, it will be a surprise when you get it in your mail box! I like surprises so I'm sure you do too!

The weather has been great here in my part of Canada, warm temperatures, no snow it has been making me feel in better moods, hopefully the white stuff is gone for good!

I am sorry i haven't been posting I have been busy trying to get stuff unpacked but I do promise that this blog is going to get way better and you are going to want to hopefully put it on your morning coffee blog hop list. I am thankful for all of you, my friends that I have met (virtually of course) I wish I could meet you all in person, but you never know!

Today I want to share with you the blog of a truly amazing woman that I have never met but intend to when we eventually take our trip to the UK.
http://lynsblogger.blogspot.com/. Her blog and everything on it is beautiful and very inspiring, its the type of stuff that makes your jaw drop to the floor, I have mentioned before I was lucky enough to receive some of her work, and I have to tell you, shes got massive talent. Also very recently I asked for some stamped images and a few of you replied that you would send me some, She sent me a package that made me cry, along with several and I mean several stamped images, she sent me a ton of Magnolia stamps, yes the real thing, actual stamps. I just find it truly amazing the heart that she has to send me what she did, I can't believe the generosity to someone that she hasn't even met, really am I that special? She sure made me feel that way.

When I am straightened out with my craft room and health permitting I plan to show you who I am as well, I love putting smiles on other peoples faces and I think that is what is going to make me better and getting my life on track and that is doing what i am here to do and that is make a difference in someone else's life, I have big dreams in my life to make changes in others lives and that is what gets me through the day!

Hope the weather is nice where you are, Good night/Morning everyone!

BIG HUGS!!!!

What do you think?

2010-03-07T00:23:00.005-05:00

I still haven't had time to sit down and make a card and I am seriously going through withdrawal, soon as the craft room is organized and I can get to the boxes of stuff I will create! Trying to find inspiration for some of my other hobbies as well, I love working on my art journal, and I will maybe post some pics of that another day.

On an exciting note I cooked Supper for my family for the first time ever tonight and it was horrible! It was called Chicken Strata, I don't know what I did wrong, I followed a recipe but i tell ya....eww

I am going through Olympic withdrawal as well, absolutely love watching them and now they are over = (

I really like the picture I previously posted of my Niece with the airplane so I struck the same pose hopefully soon we will have time to go down to the Airport soon and do some more plane spotting and i can try to think of some cool picture ideas!
I want to try to post a video on my blog of my wedding in Cuba as well as other pictures that I compiled with music. It's a DVD that I put together for everyone that couldn't make it to our wedding (which was everyone) Its a mixture of video clips and pictures, with music featuring the wedding, our swim with the dolphins which was absolutely hilarious and other pictures. I need your opinion would you like to see this? If so I will try to post it. I like sharing positive things, especially because some of my posts are not to positive, so i need your input! have a good night everyone!!

A little of me...

2010-03-02T19:19:00.003-05:00

I just noticed I lost a follower, that makes me sad, I don't know what i did, I have been busy and haven't been posting all that much recently but why did they go? No one else is going to leave right?

I found this on a blog awhile back and i completed it an had it saved on my computer thought I would share it with you so you caould learn a little bit about me, try it for yourself its actually fun!

Layers of Me
LAYER ONE:
Your Birthdate: 12/22/1983
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Your middle name: Rose Lee

LAYER TWO:
Your heritage: I have no idea, sad isn’t it? I’d love to know, but no one else seems to know they just say Canadian. Well obviously, but who were my ancestors?
The shoes you wore today: Barefoot
Your weakness: Shopping
Your fears: death, spiders, lightning, fire, sharks
Your perfect pizza: feta cheese, broccoli Goal you'd like to achieve: Overcome my mental illness

LAYER THREE: Your most overused phrase: RYAN!!!!! (as in me calling for him from another room)
Your best physical feature: my eyes
Your bed time: Whenever
Your most missed memory: Air Cadets (Something that you do to prepare yourself for the military which I never did due to my illness) Best memories, consumed all of my teenage years! I could go on forever talking about it.

LAYER FOUR:
Pepsi or Coke: Neither really, I like ginger ale and grape pop.
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or group dates: I’m married but I did prefer single dates.
Adidas or Nike: Not really into brand names

LAYER FIVE: Do you... Cuss: sometimes
Sing: yes, and I have been to Canadian Idol and also won a singing contest in the Dominican republic
Do you think you've been in love: I hope so I have a husband!
Want to go to college: again for a 4th time? Sure! I'd go forever if I could, but would rather take the classes at home because I cant leave the house all that much
Like(d) high school: no the people there were stuck up and the classes way to easy and boring!
Want to get married: already am
Believe in yourself: Sometimes
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: yes
Like thunderstorms: See above my fears
Play an instrument: yes, piano, guitar, bagpipes and vocal.

LAYER SIX:In the past month, have you...
Drink alcohol: no
Done drugs: no
Gone on a date: no
Gone to the mall: no
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
Eaten Sushi: no
Been on stage: no
Been dumped: no
Made homemade cookies: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no
Dyed your hair: no,
Stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN:
Been called a tease: yes
Gotten beaten up: got punched in the face by someone who was high and thought I was someone else at a bar!

LAYER EIGHT:
Age you hope to be married: Got married at 24
Numbers and Names of Children: we want two, for the girls name we like Melody Hannah and for a boy Tyler Devin
Describe your dream wedding: Well I definitely wouldn’t be describing my actual wedding and it was not my dream wedding trust me
How do u want 2 die: peacefully in my sleep and very very old
Where you want to go to college: online
What you want to be when you grow up: I don’t want to ever grow up
Place(s) would you like to visit: Europe, especially Greece, Egypt, California, South Africa, Thailand, Costa Rica etc…
LAYER NINE: In opposite sex.
Best eye color: blue but my husband has brown
Best hair color: dark which my hubby has!
Height: 6 feet which is about my husbands height
Best articles of clothing: jeans, and a nice hooded sweatshirt
Best first date location: coffee
Best first kiss location: the lips!

LAYER TEN:
Number of drugs: Illegal? None.
Number of people I could trust in my life: Definitely 7 maybe more Number of CDs that I own: All of my cd’s have been transferred to iTunes and they are old, haven’t bought a new cd in years and years
Number of piercing: six- two in each lobe, one on the upper ear (cartilage?) and my belly button
Number of tattoos: two, dolphins on my shin above my ankle and shooting stars on my foot that I had done with my best friend who is in the military
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Grandma used to put my birthday in the paper every year, plus other birthdays and our engagement, I am going to say around 20 maybe?
Number of scars on my body: hmm, I have one on my chin from when I thought I could fly and jumped off of the monkey bars in the winter, sliced my whole chin open, two days before the stitches came out I was jumping on the furniture and split it open again. I have a chicken pox scar on my forehead from stretching the skin for it not to itch, I was told not to scratch so I thought I had thought of another clever way, I was wrong,things in my past that I regret: The way that we chose to be married. We went to Cuba and go married by ourselves with no one there and it was not what I had envisioned, we then had a reception 5 months later and it went horribly wrong so if we renew our vows we will do it the right way in front of family. That is my biggest regret.

The move!!

2010-02-25T18:57:00.003-05:00

Hey everyone, wow these last few days have been terrible, moving two homes into one is chaotic and everyone is on a short fuse and ugh...
My parents couldn't get there queen size box spring upstairs into there bedroom and it was a really expensive one and that's just the beginning of it.

Thanks again everyone for keeping me in your prayers, on Sunday night they were heard. It was probably the worst night if my life, I was about to go to sleep and all of a sudden it just hit me I had the worst anxiety attack I have ever had in my life to date, and considering I have them on a daily basis, this one was by far the worst. I felt I was losing control of my mind and my body and I was losing the battle, I didn't think I was going to come out of it, I was about ready to call an ambulance I'm sure glad that night has passed.

Anyways I can still receive mail at my old place because we have not sold as of yet. I think that I have gotten my address out to those who are kind enough to send me some images (i love you guys) but with all of the chaos I'm not sure who has my new address and who doesn't so leave a comment if i have not given you my new address and you want it and I will be sure to email it to you, and for those that I have given it too could you please email it to me just to ensure that I have given the proper one! Sorry of all of this confusion I just want to make sure your address book is correct! I will be up and running soon with more creations and visiting your blogs and seeing all of the lovelies that you have made soon! Thanks for being such great friends and for sticking around. Hugs to everyone!

Allsorts Week #39 and Tuesday Morning Sketches #33 two cards, two challenges again...

2010-02-17T21:56:00.003-05:00

Card 1- Allsorts Challenge

Card 1- This is my entry for the Allsorts Challenge Blog Week 39. The challenge was a recipe challenge and that we had to use 3 of something, two of something and one of something. I used
3- Butterflies
2- Different decorative papers
1- Birthday Embellishment
My Grandmas birthday is coming up March 12 so made this card with her birthday in mind. The butterflies have come from the website I have went to for all of my other decoupage projects http://thelilacgardendecoupagesite.co.uk I love this site! My paper and letters were stuff that i had in my stash and the Birthday Embellishment came from some surprise goodies that were sent to me by BlackDragon http://lynsblogger.blogspot.com/
I had won a free digi image in a blog hop that she was involved in and she was kind enough to send me her projects that she used the images on which was a box and a card, and when I received it the box was filled with wonderful goodies, thank you so much!

Card 2- Tuesday Morning Sketches
Like the title of the blog this was a sketch challenge I felt like starting my Easter cards so I created one, for the challenge, The sketch was a little tricky but soon as I saw it it reminded me of an egg in the center, then I saw this cute 3d decoupage bunny over on photo bucket, I will give proper credit when I find the place to give it to. My papers are a mixture of just stuff I had and the cute butterflies that are at the top are from the dollar store.

I cant believe that I made so many cards today, despite all of the chaos, I couldn't leave the house because I wasn't up to it but I had to keep my mind busy so I made cards, I made three more but they are going to people who might read this blog, so check your mailboxes maybe its you!

I'm still alive...

2010-02-15T22:24:00.002-05:00

Sorry I haven't been around, this is a very busy week, this is the week we get the keys to the new place, still haven't sold our place yet so keep us in your thoughts and hopefully we will sell! I don't know my new full address but when I do I will get it to those that said they would send me some stamped images, you guys are awesome i am so lucky to have met wonderful friends like you and if there is anything I can do for you, let me know! Stick around I will be back with more exciting stuff hopefully real soon when the chaos calms down!

Wow I'm impressed-Two Cards, two challenges!

2010-02-11T23:22:00.003-05:00

Entry for Just Cute Bears Challenge- Challenge #3 Hearts

Entry for Tuesday Morning Sketches #32

Just wanted to post the cards at the very top so the entry's can be seen by the judges as soon as they link to my post.

Card 1- I came across this challenge blog and thought this would be a fun challenge. I used a 3D decoupage image from the same place I used in from on my last 3D card, if you want to go check it out there are some super cute images to play with http://thelilacgardendecoupagesite.co.uk/
I'm just mad that you can't tell it is 3D because I worked really hard cutting all of the little pieces out, so just imagine, you are seeing it in person because it is way better.

Card 2- Really like this Challenge blog, the people over there are great and the sketch for this week was super fun. I decided to do it Valentine themed and I did an iris folded heart on the front, soon as I saw this sketch I knew I wanted to do the iris folding, and I knew that I would just work the rest of my card around the heart which I wanted to be the focal point, after I made that heart everything else just came together,. I like this card because it is different and required my patience.

I have a question for anyone reading this and I'm hoping someone is able to help. I really would like a House Mouse or Magnolia stamp and would be willing to buy an old one that you may not be using, my Husband and I are not in the situation to have a credit card or even to set up pay pal right now but other payment arrangements could be made, I just really want to make a card with one of these images and I can't buy them brand new for the reasons listed above, I would even be willing to pay for some stamped images if your not willing to part with a stamp but I read on blogs that, that is wrong, and I don't know if this is corrector if it is OK to stamp images for someone else, anyways I hope you don't find me rude for asking but it never hurts right?

(As last time now on to non card related stuff)

We had a viewing today but we don't know the outcome yet, i have to wait till the real estate posts the feed back on the website, so cross your fingers and toes for us because we want this place sold!

Past Couple of days have been really hard for me I have been feeling a lot of agitation and anger because i am just so frustrated as to why I have to deal with being sick and why for so long. I have been this way for two and a half years, It will be 3 years in June. I am having several panic attacks a day at this moment and they pretty much follow a schedule,I have learned and tried all of the techniques possible and they don't work. Then during those periods of the day when I am not having my anxiety my mood is really low and sometimes I feel as if I am going to snap, and just lose control of my thoughts and actions which is the scariest thing ever and what's even worse is that its not a one time thing for me its on a frequent basis. When I am having these moments I do think of the prayers you all have sent me and it gets me through so I wish to thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Sew Many Challenges -Challenge #3

2010-02-08T21:47:00.005-05:00

I wanted to try a Challenge over at Sew Many Challenges, as I found their site during a blog hop and I won a $25 Gift Certificate to Stamp And Create and an upcoming top secret new release Rubber Stamp from Wags n' Whiskers (yes I copied my prize from over at the site itself that is why there is those hyperlink thingies which I don't know how to do.) It's a wonderful site and if you haven't been over there go check it out

http://www.sewmanychallenges.com/?bda67340

They are a very friendly bunch and this challenge was super fun, so what are you waiting for finish reading my post and go take a look for yourself!

Anyways back on topic, the challenge was to use the colours red, silver and black with a Valentines Day theme, I love Precious Moments and thought that this would be perfect for the challenge. I am trying to get better by using more embellishments and going out of my comfort zone but this is something that I still have to work on.

(If you choose to continue reading this entry for other then the challenge you may, but I wouldn't want to bore you, it's just updates on how I'm feeling and stuff for those that are interested. For those here to see my entry that's it for card related stuff in this post. I feel that I should keep the two topics separate for those who choose not to know what is going on with me personally and just want to see my card, eitherway I really appreciate you taking the time to stop by and visit. Your comment's mean the world to me!)

-------UPDATES IN MY LIFE-----------

Just under two weeks until we get the keys for the townhouse, and just over two weeks till we have the moving truck, we still haven't sold our place yet, but it will probably look better and sell quicker if nothing is in it. With it being a trailer, the emptier it is the better, that way it looks bigger and people can use their imaginations, I'm imagining its a lot different then selling a house. Hopefully it sells before then but who knows. The real estate agent said that she thinks it is going to sell soon but until someone puts in an offer its any ones guess. Enough with that, boring....

Still feeling crappy, I went to the doctors and he upped my Seroquel by 25mg which is hardly nothing, He still doesn't have me on an anti-depressant which makes me feel like I am missing something. It's making it hard to function. I want to be going out and living a normal life, not missing everything because I can't leave the house, I feel like I am in this horrible rut and I'm spinning around in circles

Stamp Something Delightfully Delicious Challenge

2010-02-04T17:08:00.003-05:00

First I will post the picture for the challenge, describe it then I will ramble!

This is my entry for the challenge over at http://stampchallenges.blogspot.com/. The challenge was to create something that was delightfully delicious.

I got this freebie Digi from http://digital-doodling.blogspot.com/ She is so cute and I thought with the cupcake this would be a perfect image for the challenge. The patterned paper is one that came with a pad of papers from Michael`s. 180 sheet`s for $20 CAD. I`m pretty sure I got a good deal. Colored her with regular markers, pencil crayons and gel pens and the other paper and embellishments and stuff is all from the Dollarama, The thumb is mine lol.

This is the first card I have made in a little bit but after I move the ball is going to get rolling a little under three weeks and I will be able to create, socialize and visit more on all of your wonderful and inspiring blogs! I do miss having the time, and I really do get excited to see that someone has posted something new and I have a feeling that I am not the only one like this. Ahh the life of a blogger! Ok, yeah now I'm rambling. It`s been kinda quiet on my blog so come by enjoy what I have to show you and prepare for more excitement in the next couple of weeks!

Niece's and Airplanes

2010-01-27T22:56:00.006-05:00

Hi, sorry i haven't been posting, just alot going on right now and getting up the energy is another thing, I am going to try better to maintain the friendships that i have made with all of you but just bear with me till I get moved and then things will be much better.

So back in December I won a Challenge at
http://tuesdaymorningsketches.blogspot.com/ I was a featured stamper for January 5, 2010 and this was my creation;

The image was a digi that I purchased with my winnings from Inktegrity, same with the happy mail circle thing (Where is my vocabulary?) The brads are from Michael's. The image is colored with good ole' Crayola markers, cause I can't afford to buy the fancy ones that I drool over when i see them on all of your blogs, but there fine for now.

My Husband's niece came over for the night so I decided to keep her busy, we would make cards, she loves doing many things at once, so I was happy that she was actually really focused on making this card. I showed her the sketch which was the same that i had to make for the Featured Stamper spot, and I helped when she asked for it but other then that she did it all on her own! Below is the two of us holding the cards that we made, didn't she do awesome! And shes only 9! (Please excuse the way I look in these pictures, I look like a slob, but i can polish up if need be!)

This is my workspace in all of its glory until we move. I have my bed and a little TV tray. This is the only room we are using because we live in a trailer and have the living room basically empty to make it look bigger, so everything is done from the bed. It is terrible, but a couple of more weeks.

The last image i will leave you with today is our Niece watching the big KLM Asia come into Toronto Pearson, we took her to see the planes as she has never been before and the funniest thing was, not longer after we got there they stopped landing on the runway that we watch them on and they were landing on a runway they never use! Trust me we have been down there to plane watch enough times to find this very odd, so we didn't get to see a whole lot of planes that day but i love this picture. There is only one plane that comes bigger then this and that's the A380 but it wasn't landing that day so the 777 will have to do. I am so glad i caught this picture because it's moving pretty fast I took a double one, so it took two pictures consecutively and you should see how much it moved in that one second, if my timing would have been off another second I wouldn't have got this shot! Well if you are still reading this then you really must still love me, hopefully I will post again tomorrow!

Unsatisfied production...

2010-01-20T22:26:00.003-05:00

So I start this post untitled, I don't know where I am going with it yet, I just thought I would start typing and see where it takes me. Lately I have been working more on my art journal which I intend to post pictures of really soon, my card making is coming up unsatisfactory, I have a card ready to be posted for a challenge, I think I just don't know if I am satisfied with it yet.

I am curious to know something, How do you do a random act of kindness and keep it a surprise if you don't have the persons address? This boggles me and please let me know! I received my first blog candy win in the mail on Monday from Lisa and I was so happy, I have never ever received a package in the mail that required a signature before in my life it was the coolest thing, I almost could have cried, it was pretty emotional, and all the goodies were beautiful especially the handmade items which I hope to take a picture of and post with her permission of course. I would have already posted pics of this and of my journalling but my printer is beside my bed ( I put the memory card in there to upload the pictures) and near the ground underneath this cabinet thing and i get dizzy when i bend down like that (stupid med side effects) so I have to wait for my hubby to do it. In one month we are moving into a townhouse with my parents, which I am really excited for. See my trailer is up for sale right now and it is small so my only workspace is my bed because most of the furniture is in the shed to make the living space look bigger. all of my craft stuff is underneath the bed, which hubby has to get as well for me. It is supper annoying! When we move into my parents , my mom and I are going to have our own craft room, see they are moving into this new house the same time we are so my mom is just as excited as I am!

I would really like it if I could have some feedback on my blog, things I could change, and stuff like that. I am honored i have so many followers and i have met some wonderful people but I want you to come back frequently and visit so if there is anything that i can do, just let me know, you live and learn right?

Have a good night/ morning wherever in the world you might be, I sure wish i was someplace sunny, like where my faithful follower and friend
Tertia is! Winter in Canada stinks, it hasn't been bad this year really but I hate the cold, and snow and you would think after 26 years I'd be used to it! If I had the money I would be on a plane somewhere with no snow, wearing sandals and summer dresses, instead of winter coats and snow boots. Well all I can do is go to sleep and dream about it, It's warm under my blankets, so If I shut my eyes I can go to that warmer place...ahhh..zzzzz...nite nite

Mojo monday Week 121

2010-01-14T15:12:00.003-05:00

Whew this month is going by fast. I have a doctor's appointment in an hour so I am hoping he is going to work miracles and give me the right prescription this time. I really appreciate the support you have been giving me, and the stories you have shared on my comments to let me know and to reassure me that I am not alone with this. I wish that Anxiety and Depression disorders didn't exist but they do and all I can do is learn from my struggles and experiences and come out of this a stronger person. When I am better I plan to make a difference in some way, I want to raise the awareness of mental health and hopefully create or find a way to create more support that works better then the resources that are provided now. We have the Canadian Mental Health Association but I find they are a joke, I have nothing but bad experiences with them, others may have found it helpful but as for me i think it has caused more problems each time making me feel more helpless because of all places you would think that would be the one place that would help right? Not a chance. if I want good help I have to play for it. Ontario has free health care but having a good doctor for mental health costs money. I guess I cant complain because most places don't have the advantage of free health care but I can not afford the extra money it would cost to get the proper help I need.

Anyways i made this card a couple of days ago for the Mojo Monday challenge, I just haven't had the energy to post it Its for Mojo Monday Week 121. I really love their challenges and i tend to do them more frequently then others. I find sometimes i am limited to challenges because I am limited in supplies. I found this free 3d decoupage bear and flower from http://thelilacgardendecoupagesite.co.uk/teddydecoupage.html

beautiful stuff over on that site!

Whew here we go...2 Challenges, two cards (Cute card Thursday 94 and Charisma Cardz Week 1)

2010-01-07T22:48:00.004-05:00

I have not been blogging for the past few days, my depression has been really kicking me in the butt, I started out with just anxiety and then a couple of months ago my doctor diagnosed me with clinical depression. The anxiety is still the majority of the problem but sometimes the depression rears its ugly head.

I finally gathered the strength and energy to make a couple of cards for a couple of challenges the first is over at Charisma Cards Week 1 and it was a color challenge to use the colors pink brown cream and toffee. Hope this is ok.

The second challenge was over at Cute Card Thursday Challenge #94 and the challenge theme was all new so I made a baby card

Both of the images came from a french coloring book site which I love! I really need to get out of the house, it's been pretty much two months since i have been able to actually go any where, i have the odd day where i am somewhat OK but not good enough to go shopping and I need stuff! Also I am anxious for the post man to come everyday because I am waiting on two packages (Blog candy I won) one from the UK and the other from the USA. I guess they are taking a long time because of Christmas, hopefully tomorrow? I need some new stash soon!

I was also a featured stamper this week over at Tuesday Morning Sketches but I will fill you in more with that tomorrow hopefully. Good night everyone (depending on where you live!)

Olympic Torch Comes through Barrie Ontario, and...where is everyone?

2009-12-30T21:12:00.003-05:00

My biggest problem I have always had even before the anxiety is Paranoia, come to think of it that could be one of my links to my Anxiety. I used to dread when I was younger if one of my friends was mad at me that everyone was mad at me. I have thought that because someone doesn't get back to me for a couple of days that they too were mad at me. Now this has been personal and very hard to tell in such a public place but its me, it's who I am. The reason why I am bringing this up, is because no one commented on my last post, I don't know if I did something wrong with the card or said something wrong, but the highlight of my day is getting comments from all of you amazing people. Please don't get offended by this but I miss you guys and if I ever say or do anything wrong on one of my posts please let me know so i can fix it or remove the content from my blog. I know that it's the busy time of year and I am just working myself up and ultimately this blog is for me but I have loved the interaction with each and everyone of you. Please excuse this ramble. I don't know if I am just making it worse.

Anyways the Olympic torch came to Barrie Ontario last night and we only had to go a couple of blocks from our house to see it go by. i wasn't feeling the best but i wasn't going to miss this.

Me and my Hubby waiting and it was really cold!

The Coca Cola Float in the procession

The Olympic Torch such a beautiful thing to see and the runners had tears streaming sown their faces i wanted to cry to it was such an amazing moment!

This last shot was taken by mistake and it is our favourite picture out of the whole bunch. Our camera is really on it's last legs and we didn't get one for Christmas so this one will have to do.

I have been reading the archives of all of your blogs, yes all of them, I have a little organizational thing going on in Excel Spreadsheet and I read a little bit of the archives each day until i get caught up to the recent posts, so soon I will be leaving comments and such on your blogs, I just wanted to catch up on everything first, and it takes awhile when you have many posts! I want to follow the blog properly and that is why I am reading each and every one of your blogs the entire was through! I thought that that's why people haven't come here because i am not going there but I am trust me! I just feel reading them in order won't get me so confused and I am not jumping all over the place.

If i don't post tomorrow Happy New Year's everyone!

Cute Card Thursday Challenge #92

2009-12-28T12:13:00.002-05:00

The challenge over at Cute Card Thursday was a them card and the theme was NEW YEARS.

I have never made a card for New Years before nor have I ever received one , so this was a challenge for me. I just thought of glitter and colourful streamers and that's where i came up with the idea for this card.

For some reason, despite everything that is current in my life, I rather enjoy new years. We don't really do anything for New Years Eve but the feeling that the new year brings, can even make someone who suffers from anxiety and depression have hope that the new year will be a better one. One thing for sure is that sometime in 2010 I need a trip! I find when I go away it really helps me but I guess vacations help everyone. I really don't care where I go, I just need to get away! Now this probably won't happen because we don't have money to do such a thing but you never know what could happen. It doesn't hurt to dream does it?

Stamptacular Sunday Challenge #38 Multifolds

2009-12-26T22:39:00.003-05:00

This is My entry for Challenge 38 over at Stamptacular Sunday. I have shown four pictures here to show different views of the card. The balloons are actually gourmet jelly Beans wrapped in Saran wrap. I thought that would be really cool to try and I like this card and I think the recipient will too just as long as the jelly beans are eaten when still fresh! I colored the clown image with gel pens, and for the strings to the balloons I used embroidery floss

I want to thank everyone for their thoughts prayers and hugs you guys are truly amazing, Sorry this post lacks enthusiasm but I guess I am not my normal self right now (but then again was I ever?)

A special thanks to Lisa over at Adornment's by Lisa

http://adornmentsbylisa.blogspot.com/

I won her blog candy and it couldn't have come at a better time. She was very generous in her blog candy giveaway and I am very lucky, and can't wait for it to come in the mail. Hop on over to her blog and check out her amazing creations!

Sorry if I missed anything else I should have mentioned but my mind is other places....

The Sweetest Thing- Sweet Sunday Sketch Challenge #49

2009-12-23T23:04:00.003-05:00

(Challenge entry at bottom of post)

I guess when something happens that is devastating, every one has there own way to deal with things. For me, I know that because I have anxiety, I must carry on as normal as possible when something happens in order to get through some rough times. If not I wouldn't be able to cope.

This morning at 4am EST my Grandma passed away. She has held on for over a year since she had her stroke which was a week after I got married. She was a real fighter and an amazing woman. She is technically only my step grandma however I have been raised knowing her as my real Grandma because my dad came into our lives when I was about two. She never treated me any different then her other grandchildren I suppose because she has watched me grow up. She had a hard life and a very kind heart, she had been through much heartache but still had a heart of gold. She always made you feel so special. Even through this past year when she wasn't able to talk or respond, when we would go visit her there was a sparkle in her eye, and you knew she knew you were there. She only met my husband a few times but she was crazy about him! When she was in the hospital after having her stroke she wasn't responsive at all. She just lay there sleeping but when my husband came in and this is hours after the rest of the family was in talking to her she woke right up and tried so hard to smile and it was amazing. Now my husband has done some special things but that was amazing! This is the most I have opened up all day this blog is really helping me and if this is what it takes to get it out then so be it.

Now I need to tell you something about my husband and why that moment was so special with my Grandma.

I met my Husband about six months before I got sick, I was going through a pretty rough time and one night I went to bed and I prayed for a sign that everything was going to be OK. Now mind you I am not very good with prayers but I do pray. That night I had a dream and there was a man in this dream that I had never met before. I woke up the next morning and went to school, I was in college at the time and I looked everywhere figuring I had seen him there. No he wasn't there. A couple of weeks later the day after valentines I met my husband who I had only communicated with through the computer. We agreed to meet and when I first saw him I realized he had been the man in my dream! and there was no possible way of seeing him before because he had just moved here from three hours away. OK another thing, is when you take pictures of him, and this has happened on more then one occasion and with different cameras, he is somewhat transparent. Call me crazy but I have my beliefs that he is an angel. He can make any child stop crying and warm up to him, even in line at Walmart, and I haven't met a animal that doesn't like him. How he got my grandmother to respond fits into my theory. and yes you probably think I'm crazy and you will never visit my blog again but there are too many unexplained occurrences. If you are still reading this thanks for listening. And no I am not crazy!

OK so I had to keep my mind off of today so I entered a challenge over at The Sweetest Thing. I did half the card in the dark because my power went out so I didn't have much light. but the power is back on now.

Tuesday Morning Sketches #24

2009-12-19T22:57:00.002-05:00

This is my entry for Tuesday Morning Sketches #24. The requirements were:

1 tag
1 hidden message
lots of glitter

You can't tell that well in these pictures but the whole front of the card is painted with glitter. Remember you can click on these pictures to make them bigger for a closer look.

Picture one: The card itself, exactly how it would be received.
Picture two: The card with the tag pulled out.
Picture three: The card and the tag together.
Picture four: The card with the tag which opens to reveal the secret message. You cant read it too well but under the snowflakes there is a sentiment that reads "Good Tidings."

Sorry about the quality of the pictures but i have asked Santa for a camera and I sure hope I get it, so I can take better pictures!

Everything that i used was from my stash, just random stuff except for the snowflake tea folding paper which was free with my Papercraft essentials magazine.
Thanks for looking!

Paper Cupcakes Magical monday Challenge- Glitz it up

2009-12-18T23:15:00.003-05:00

This is my entry for the Glitz it up challenge over at Paper Cupcakes. This image was very generously lent to us and we had to make a card using this image. I had so much fun with this card. I am low on embellishments and have been to sick to go out and stock up, so I got creative with pipe cleaners and the Delia flower, which as you can tell I absolutely love making. You cant tell from this picture but the Christmas bulbs I used these really net pens, that have a 3d effect when they dry. They are called Souffle (TM) 3-d Opaque Ink and they are made by Sakura. Please don't laugh I have never given credit when referring to something with a trademark, so I hope my efforts were good enough!

Thanks to those who have wished for me to feel better, I still haven't really gotten anywhere and it's frustrating because Christmas is next week, and our place is going up for sale on Monday and for the most part I am stuck in bed. I have been meeting other people online that have been going through what I am and it's reassuring that I am not the only one going through this although I wish no one had to feel like this. Anyways enough of the bad stuff. Hope everyone is being good because Santa comes next week!

Card Patterns Challenge Sketch #45

2009-12-13T21:22:00.004-05:00

This is my entry for the challenge over at Card Patterns The Challenge was a little challenging but fun, took me a couple of hours to make because I still have not been feeling very good and also I couldn't decide what I wanted to do for this card

My birthday is in a week and my mother in law and nanny which is my husbands grandma came over to celebrate my birthday early. Because I am not well enough to leave the house they came over to mine and made lunch and cheese cake. I will have more pictures of my other birthday celebrations but they haven't happened yet.

Tomorrow my best friend is coming to visit she lives in Kingston which is about 3 1/2 hours away depending on how you drive. I am grateful every time i get to see her. Last year during the holidays she was in Afghanistan doing a six month tour because she is in the military, it was a hard time knowing she was over there but she called me all the time to let me know that she was all right, but thankfully she is home safe now, and doesn't have to go back anytime in the near future, she is helping out working at the Olympics coming in January she is off to British Columbia but because she is doing this it means she doesn't have to go back to Afghanistan for a while.

I gotta go lie down again this sucks, I can only sit at the computer for 10 minutes at a time other then that I have to lie down, and yes I made most of the card, laying down, so it might not be perfect but it kept me busy. Have a good night everyone!

Mojo Monday 116- Contest

2009-12-11T18:08:00.003-05:00

This is my entry for the Mojo Monday 116 contest. I loved the layout this week, it was awesome. I love this card because its a Christmas card but in non-traditional colors, and as a few of you know, pink is my favourite colour! I used pieces from the Vintage cards magazine which I love, the backing paper and also the 3D decoupaged kitty. The rest of the stuff is just stuff from my stash. I'm sorry I haven't been posting. I'm going through a medication change and have been really dizzy and feeling really crappy. But please keep coming by I love your comments and I really appreciate my followers! Thanks for understanding guys!

Really fun and Inspirational blog hop!

2009-12-09T21:12:00.003-05:00

Go Check it out!

http://www.thecharactercafe.com/index.htm/

So many nice cards ,and blogs to visit, great prizes and a ton of inspiration! This blog hop was lots of fun, so head over to The Character Cafe and follow the instructions to get you started!

ICS#45-Sketch Challenge

2009-12-08T00:30:00.004-05:00

I hope Santa brings me a new camera for Christmas because this picture does the card no justice, and I took about 30 pictures. This card is for the challenge over at Inspirational Card Sketches where they provide a layout for you to follow, go check them out, it's a great challenge site and the challenge was so much fun

http://icsketches.blogspot.com/

Anyways its my Mom's 50th birthday on Wednesday so I made this card for her. Shes fighting pneumonia right now which sucks and shes such a petite woman (only 95lbs) So it's taking longer for her to get better. if I win this challenge I am going to give the prize to her because she deserves it.

Anyways heres another picture I have taken so you know my photography skills are not that bad.

This is an Airbus 380 (A380) It right now is the largest commercial airplane. This was taken at Toronto Pearson International, It comes in 3 times a week Monday Wednesday and Friday around 3-4pm. Drool, it is so beautiful! Crowds of people gather at this time just to watch this beauty land, I'm not kidding we have met other people that like us have drove an hour or more just to watch this plane land. Check your local airport to see if an A380 lands in your area, its a rare occurrence unless you live around an airport that has alot of A380 traffic but it's so worth the drive to see this beauty. Thats all for now!

The Fresh Batch Challenge-SASSC43

2009-12-06T22:58:00.004-05:00

This is my entry for the challenge over at The Fresh Batch. I have no idea if this is going to show up but all my words are underlined and in blue, if they are in my post, sorry I will try to fix that, If not just ignore me I must be going crazy.

The link to this challenge is

http://sasthefreshbatch.blogspot.com/2009/12/stamps-and-smiles-sketch-challenge.html

There is a layout there to follow, I turned the layout on it's side but I followed it the best I could to my understanding of what the layout was. My kitty, whose name is Belle ( husband wouldn't let me name her Tinkerbell) wanted to post with my card tonight so I let her ( I cant be a mean mommy to my fur baby!)

Here is Belle Showing the card that will hopefully win the challenge
Aww no more pictures i want to go back to sleep (tee, hee, hee)

And A closeup of the card itself being supported by a fur background lol.

I got the image of the gingerbread house from

http://www.daisiecompany.com The rest of the stuff is just from my stash, I don't have alot of expensive supplies so I just work with what I got!

Hope you enjoy the card!

2 Red Bananas-Banana Split Sunday-Reflection of Warmth

2009-12-06T19:05:00.002-05:00

This is my entry for the Banana Split Sunday challenge. I had so much fun entering last week I wanted to enter again! This weeks challenge is to create a project that reflects warmth, and the first thing that popped into my head was a fireplace!. I printed the image of the fire from a coloring book website and the bricks is scrap booking paper i think from Michael's. Everything else i just had lying around and the sentiment i printed off of Microsoft word. It is an excerpt from 'Twas the Night Before Christmas" story and I thought it fit in perfectly with this card. Hope you enjoy!

2009-12-04T14:16:00.003-05:00

Good Morning kind of, I know its late in the day almost 4pm but with the way I have been sleeping this is morning to me, I will probably post again later on today but for now go check out these blogs which have some yummy blog candy to try and win!

http://meholder.blogspot.com/2009/11/megaliscious-if-thats-word-blogcandy.html

http://scrapperlicious.blogspot.com/2009/11/over-half-million-hits.html

http://milniecreations.blogspot.com/2009/11/followers-blog-candy.html

http://hayward69.blogspot.com/2009/11/some-40th-birthday-blog-candy.html

http://whiteribboncards.blogspot.com/2009/11/blog-candy-time.html

http://cattsscratchingpost.blogspot.com/2009/11/happy-blogoversary-to-me.html

http://athousandsheetsofpaper.blogspot.com/2009/11/have-holly-jolly-christmas.html#comment-form

Everybody Art Challenge #68

2009-12-03T00:14:00.002-05:00

This card is for the challenge over at
http://everybody-art-challenge.blogspot.com/2009/12/challenge-68.html
The challenge was to use stitching, and so I thought I would cross stitch this for this card.I hope this meets the criteria. I wanted to keep things fairly simple to not take a way from the cross stitching itself, so besides putting a little border around the piece I pretty much left it blank to compliment the cross stitching. It took about 4 hours to cross stitch mind you I took some small breaks, but yeah for the most part that's what I did all day.

I also participated in a blog hop over at
http://cutedaisymay.blogspot.com/2009/11/blog-hop.html
It was so much fun!

I didn't get to go to the doctors today because I couldn't leave the house, so I had to reschedule for Monday.

Thanks for the comments I have been getting, It really makes my day. Believe me when you are stuck in the house and all the fun Christmas stuff is going on it sucks. Sorry if I bring you down when I talk about this stuff, it just feels better getting it out and I'm hoping someone, somewhere that is going through what I am going through finds my blog and we can talk because sometimes I feel alone. I have my husband and he is wonderful but he doesn't understand because he doesn't know how it feels. Aww anyways I'm rambling again so i think this is nite nite ;)

2 Sketches 4 You Sketch # 40

2009-12-01T23:58:00.003-05:00

This card is for the challenge over at 2 Sketches 4 you sketch #40
http://2sketches4you.blogspot.com/2009/11/lauras-sketch-40.html

I couldn't decide what picture that I liked better so I thought I would post both of them I hope you like!

Happy December 1st!!

2009-12-01T20:03:00.002-05:00

Ok bear with me I have several things that I need to get out in today's post so I congratulate you i you read it to the end. I don't know what to say first so I will organize it like I would If i were writing a to do list

1) I won my first blog candy today! I am so happy, my heart stopped for a second and I ran to go get my husband who was outside doing work to tell him, I probably had the reaction of someone who just won the lottery, but I feel like I did, I am so excited, It made my week! A big thank you to Alison (Groovycrafter) who's blog candy I won. Check out her blog here
http://hairyharrysblogger.blogspot.com/.

2) I know I mentioned last week that I would be getting some blog candy of my own up, and I will I just haven't been well enough to leave my house, to go out and get stuff, and I don't want to send my husband because well, that just wouldn't go over well. I see the doctor tomorrow so depends how I am feeling I hope I can go get something. ( I hate being stuck in the house and my 26th birthday is on Dec 22 so I'm hoping I can get out of the house for that and Christmas.) Anyways im rambling about that again, I guess it's just natural when it's the main part of my life at the moment. Anyways...

3) I figured out how to post things in my sidebar!

Ok so it seems that I though that I had more stuff to write, I can't remember what all I wanted to say now so I might have to post again later. Anyways for now I will leave you with some more links to some yummy blog candy!

http://jacquesmagnolias.blogspot.com/2009/11/tilda-sitting-with-candy-at-just.html

http://mymindseyecreations.blogspot.com/2009/11/follow-that-bird.html

Secret Crafter Saturday Challenge #60

2009-11-30T00:23:00.003-05:00

This is my card for the challenge over at Secret Crafter Saturday Challenge. The theme this week was Christmas Trees. Check out this challenge at the link below.

http://thesecretcraftersaturdaychallenge.blogspot.com/2009/11/challenge-60.html

Thank you for looking!
Sorry about the short but sweet post but I'm falling asleep writing this. I will make a good post tomorrow!

Banana Split Sunday Challenge

2009-11-29T19:43:00.003-05:00

Here is my entry for the Challenge over at 2 Red Bananas. The challenge was to make a Christmas, or winter card. I think I am getting a bit better with photographing my cards. Here is the link to their challenge below.

http://2redbananas.blogspot.com/2009/11/banana-split-sunday-christmaswinter.html

Thanks for looking!

Mojo Monday Challenge #114

2009-11-28T23:32:00.003-05:00

This is for my entry over at Mojo Monday
http://mojomonday.blogspot.com/2009/11/mojo-monday-week-114.html
Excuse my photography skills, I'm not usually a bad photographer but this is only the second card i have ever taken a picture of so I need practice. Everything on this card is from the dollar store and you cant tell but the word cat and the cat itself are 3D. Thanks for looking!

My first Challenge, over at "Something Completely Different"

2009-11-28T16:22:00.004-05:00

I have entered my first challenge over at

http://adifferentchallengeaweek.blogspot.com/2009/11/month-6-week-29.html

The challenge was to create a card with the theme "RED AND GREEN SNOWMEN". I hope I do everything right to enter this challenge, I still am clueless! This is also my first post with something I have made for everyone to look at, there will be much more of this to come. Here is my card for this weeks challenge. The 3D decoupage is from a kit from Vintage Cards magazine, and the rest of the stuff is just from my stash. Enjoy, your comments are appreciated!

To get me through the day.

2009-11-24T21:16:00.003-05:00

So I have a lot of stuff to talk about today just where to begin? I am sooooo excited and happy like you wouldn't believe that I have two followers! That means that there are people reading my blog! This is a big deal to me because I never thought I would have a blog and that people were interested in what I have to say, wow! Like I mentioned before it's hard for me to leave my house and some of my old friends don't understand why. It hurts that I miss out on so much but doing crafts and looking at blogs, and now starting my own is what gets me through the day until my husband gets home. This won't be forever, I am going to get better I'm only 25 (almost 26) I have my whole life to live, I just have to get through this and it will only make me stronger as a person and know who I am. Anyways, I feel better sometimes when I give myself that reassurance, sorry I rambled on. I just found out today that my mom has pneumonia ( spelled that right on the first try) but she says its not that bad, so I hope she gets better real soon because her 50th birthday is in two weeks.
Here is some fantastic sites I found today while blog surfin and they are offering some fabulous candy, so go over and check out these blogs!

http://threecloversdesigns.blogspot.com/2009/11/christmas-blog-yummies.html
http://wishcraftcards.blogspot.com/2009/11/5000-hits-candy-time.html
http://hairyharrysblogger.blogspot.com/2009/11/blog-candy.html

Ok so first and formost I need to figure out the whole sidebar thing can anyone help?

2009-11-23T19:53:00.005-05:00

Ok so, I have had my blog for a week and there are some very basic things that I am having problems doing, and i don't know why because I am all right with computers so, I am reaching out to fellow bloggers for advice on crucial blog necessities! I am going to get some blog candy of my own going withing the next couple of days so more details on that are to follow, I just have to get out to the store and put something together. Those who help me will get not one, but two extra chances to win, so watch out for more details! I'm hoping this will also give me a chance to meet some fellow bloggers! I hope this is the right way to go about doing things, everyone likes some free stuff right? In the meantime I have some more blog candy for you to go visit on some amazing sites, the links are below.

http://pinkpuds.blogspot.com/2009/11/its-candy-time.html
http://ecpchallenges.blogspot.com/2009/11/giveaway.html
http://kc242designsbydenise.blogspot.com/2009/11/holiday-blog-candy-ends-december-10th.html
http://kreationsbykellylouj.blogspot.com/2009/11/happy-birthday-to-me-and-little-blog.html
http://sassydesignsbysusie.blogspot.com/2009/11/little-taste-of-sweet-tilda-candy.html
http://thechroniclesoforange.blogspot.com/2009/11/blog-candy-scroll-down-for-new-humble.html

2009-11-22T21:41:00.003-05:00

More Candy!

http://stampingsharing.blogspot.com/2009/11/mini-xmas-candy.html

http://lindascraftycreations.blogspot.com/2009/11/candy-time.html

http://wiccababe.blogspot.com/2009/11/super-duper-candy-time.html

http://scrapping-marley.blogspot.com/2009/11/candy-time.html

http://athousandsheetsofpaper.blogspot.com/2009/11/oh-happy-day.html#comment-form

http://shawneindiangirl.blogspot.com/2009/10/blog-candy-until-november-28.html

http://asprinklingofglitter.blogspot.com/2009/10/its-followers-christmas-candy-time.html#comment-form

2009-11-20T21:45:00.002-05:00

Some more blog candy that you may want to go check out, these sites have some beautiful creations and I know have made me inspired.

http://ginicagle.blogspot.com/2009/11/my-blog-candy.html
http://craftyfoxcards.blogspot.com/2009/11/candy.html
http://cherisheachpreciousday.blogspot.com/2009/11/celebrating-with-candy.html

2009-11-19T21:09:00.001-05:00

I cant wait to get over, to my parents to load some pictures onto thier computer so i can post some of my creations on my blog! I wish I still had the cord for my camera but i can't find it since we moved and I cant find another that will fit the camera. Who knows, maybe Santa will bring me another camera for Christmas, this one I am using now has a broken screen anyways. No one has come to visit yet but I am trying to meet people by commenting on thier blogs, and who knows, maybe they will come visit me. ( If you do, I'd like to know how to post in my sidebar, thanks!) i have linked some more blog candy for anyone to go check out, thats if I get any visitors ;)
http://crystalkbk.blogspot.com/2009/04/elephant-birthday.html

http://inkyfingersrule.blogspot.com/2008/01/its-go.html

http://papercraftsbyrach.blogspot.com/2008/05/challenge-ismaki-21.html

http://thethinkinspot.blogspot.com/2008/02/this-from-heart-card-was-lot-of-fun-to.html

http://clairebsd.blogspot.com/

Hopefully tomorrow I will beable to get out of the house because the Santa Claus Parade where I live is tomorrow. See its not that easy for me to do this because of my anxiety disorder, its really hard to deal with right now and at the moment I only feel safe in my house. Hopefully the medication I am on will get me functioning so I can live normally, problem is many of my loved ones don't understand what I am dealing with right now. Only time will make things better, only time.

Just thought I would share a picture I took doing one of my hobbies, when I am feeling up to going out, this is plane watching. Yes it is an unusual hobby but it really is fun to do, they are so close and so loud and I love taking pictures of them.

2009-11-17T19:24:00.001-05:00

I dont know how to add links to other peoples blogs and I wanted to start building my blog by advertising some blog candy that is at blogs that gives me great inspiration the links are here:

http://diamonddollscraftyspace.blogspot.com/

http://angeldrummer.blogspot.com/

http://nannieflash.blogspot.com/

http://pinksandlilacs.blogspot.com/

http://clairebsd.blogspot.com/2009/10/its-candy-time.html

http://taylordconcepts.blogspot.com/2009/10/blog-candy.html

I dont know if I am doing this right but you live and learn right?

2009-11-17T16:10:00.000-05:00

Well , I am going to try to write on my blog at least two times a day, I have been looking at blogs for several months now and have been wanting to create one myself, to hopefully meet people who have the same interests that i do as well as show others, my creations with various crafts and passions that I have. I dont know anyone personally who blogs, so i might forget to give someone proper credit, or I might make some mistakes, but I will learn just like everyone else has right?